Life sucks

All right... Now i have two electives so what's next? The second elective i've chosen is ver much considered a suicidal attempt. I'm so going to die and suck horribly in it. The elective i'm going to take is -- (drums roll) Govt and politics of Singapore.

Course content: This course introduces organisation theory and behaviour in public organisations. Topics includes organisational environment, goals and effectiveness, strategic planning, power and decision-making, culture and value, structure and control, leadership, motivation, and communication. It also analyses the strategies of organisational change and development that make public organisations more efficient, effective, responsive, accountable, and innovative in complex and dynamic environments to meet the challenges confronting government today.

So i'm going to get all fired up and propagandistic. Walk around the school, drumming up people's support for PAP. Send my emotions firing to the max when addressing the crowds. Persuade people to support the government with aplomb. Give out fliers to fellow students. And not to mention, memorising large chunks of texts on the history of singapore's politics and regurgitate them out during exams. Write super long paragraphs until my fingers putrefy and fall off one by one. Risk falling off my chair during lectures and hurting myself as a result due to my inability to stay wake during lectures.

Anyway, the entire process of getting electives really sucks man. I was so desperate for an elective that i really went to look at this elective called the 'Tang poetry' for available places. I was at my wits' end. Even that elective did not have any available places. LIKE WTH! ok... ok... ok... but then i think my courage was commendable since i brashly went and considered taking tang poetry as an elective without first considering my chinese standard which a large morsel of it has been returned to my teachers.

My og mate expressed shock that i speak chinese. He went "ehh.. hazel. U got speak chinese one meh?"

I'm effectively bilingual man. My english and chinese standards in terms of conversational measures are not bad i think. I think la... I also had friends in TJ who thought i was those kangtang people also known as potatoes. In layman's term means those english speaking people la. I like to think it's because of the four years spent in tkgs which had made me potato-fied.

anyway, im at home! no lessons for today. Only for this wk. Nxt week i won't be able to go home on fridays. Sad...