rain collector

I don't know how to feel... I'm leading the life of a bumble bee. I'm cranky at times because of the lack of sleep. But then, this is what i've chosen. I'm not happy to lead this kind of life. It will be a blatant lie to say that i like having the life. It'll sound disgustingly pretentious and unfathomable. Moreover, i'm worried about the academic aspects. I think i'm not coping very well with all different modules and crappy electives. I reckon i'm half submerged in shithole now.

AND, i wonder who was the one who said that uni's life is more relaxing compared to JC's. To me, it's comparable and sometimes even tougher. I wonder whether the seniors who came back to JC were on a mission given by their universities to try to project universities as a fun, happening, relaxing stress-free place. What bullshit!

Things that i'm involved in:
(just a mental note so that i'll be haunted)

-JCRC stuff (every now and then)
-24 sept Hall Bash at ButterFactory
-11 Oct D&D
-Trainings for IHG games (every week and i'm thinking of joining 3 games which means 3 trainings every wk. I hope they clash)
-High chance i'll be stuck in NTU for the whole of dec hols
-Pick up IT skills (URGENT!!)
-Be a model student
-Catch up with my school work (i don't understand some lectures. Freak!)
-Be a model student (is this like repetitive?)
-Learn to survive on 4 to 5 hours of sleep
-Tired but still push myself on with a smile

Jiayou to myself. I can do it!!

Nothing lasts forever, not even troubles.

Due to lack of sleep, i keep talking rubbish. I said something like "pandas are endangered animals and we should PRESERVE them.." Conserve sia... That drew a lot of laughter. And the problem was, i didn't notice my mistake even after blurting it out until a senior pointed out and laughed at me. haha!! damn funny can! Add salt and vinegar to the panda.

i'm running out of things to say...
my brain is comatose.
Bye!