Life is not a bed of roses

It seems like every family has its own problems. The almost naive idea that i had of my family as the 'model' family without much conflicts and everyone just settles in snugly and happily now appears childish. To delve in deeper, i don't even have a complete family to begin with. But i've adjusted and come to this stage of life whereby i'm comfortable with telling people my complicated state of family.

i'm emoing but not overly so. Just slightly emo because like any other humans, i'm resistant to changes. I'm going to move house again for some reasons. I've just moved house like two years ago. Moving house is a pain in the ass. So much stuff to be moved. Furniture to be bought or recycled? i'm not sure... My notes and textbooks should be sufficient to kill people.

A source of relief is that my aunty and cousins and grandma will still be with us. If they aren't living with me, i think i'll go ADM and row down the teletubbies slopes and pray that i break my neck. Not that i have anything against my mum but my aunty and ah ma are the ones who really brought me up when my mummy was busy earning bread and butter for me. I'm close to them. I've watched my cousins grow up and i treat them like my own siblings. Of course won't bear to part with them what...

I feel sad for my grandma too. The house that i'm still living in was bought in a bid to bring everyone under one roof. Now, my uncle wants to branch off and create his own little happy family. There's absolutely nothign we can stop to avert it or tweak the fact that he's going to get married in one month's time.

Nevertheless, i'm pissed because it's freaking one month=31 days=744 hours=44640 minutes. (it'll be extremely pervertic if i talk about seconds...) Like wow!! we can do so much stuff in one month. Move house leh! Not play play la! WTH/F!

My ever so mature 14 years old cousin speculated and told me maybe the woman he wants to marry is expecting and they have to hurry up take action before the baby bump shows. I think TV has corrupted her mind... or her mind is already corrupt from the start. I don't know...

Oh gosh! I'm stuck in NTU and all of a sudden so many things happen at the other side of singapore.