can't accept some facts

I'm at a loss on how to accept some facts. Facts like your little sis is grown up and is going on dates, everything is happening too soon for you to grasp the situation, your mind is like a whirlpool, you can't accept the sweet innocent little girl who used to fight over sweets with you is proceeding to another stage or life. Or something like eternal love which i can't fathom nor bring myself to believe its existence. I don't know whether i like/loathe/can't be bothered with regards to my parents. Our relationship is, hmmm... i don't know how to describe. weird? My mum is like my walking ATM. The older i become, the gap between us seems to get even wider. My mum is busy with her work and even if she's free, she doesn't make the first step to know me. Likewise, i got disheartened and now don't initiate small talks with her or discuss things with her. As for my father, for goodness sake, we are like two strangers living in the same house, drinking from the same tap, breathing the same air but do not communicate. So, i do not know whether i should appreciate the freedom i have or detest my parents for their somewhat cavalier attitude? Maybe that's too harsh a word since they do ensure that i survive and didn't dump me at the streets so that i'm left to forage food on my own. Ok. They do care about the feeding me part and ensure that i'm clothed and have entertainment. They have completely missed the emotional part.

I don't understand teens these days. They are like living in a completely different world from what we had used to. They pledge eternal love like nobody's business. Like i had said earlier, it's not that i don't believe in eternal love entirely but i also believe in the love turns sour part and lovers may part bearing hatred for each other. Love is a complicated subject. Marriage can turn into divorce. The mushy things never fails to increase the acidity in my stomach. Plus my eyeballs will somehow loosen themselves in the sockets and roll upwards. I wish my sis all the best in her whatsoever with the whatever person but nevertheless, i'm still disgusted. Can't believe those things can be mouthed into words... AND, do you know kids nowadays like to play 'happy family'. A male friend of a girl can actually be her kor... I think it's a harmless game and it's alright. I reckon i had played such thing in primary school before. I ever heard a girl calling a classmate kor throughout the entire conversation. Maybe, that guy was really her bro but then she turned to her back and called her female classmate 'ah-ma' so i bet they were playing the 'happy family' game. Too much 'kor' reminds me of those sappy tear-jerking korean drama. Just that the characters i'd witnessed bear NO resemblance to the suave charming looking male lead or the bambi-eyed pretty female lead. So, it just made my stomach churned.

Maybe i shouldn't be over critical but it's difficult. A part of me wants to accept that my lil sis is all grown up but another conflicting part of me wants to act like a macho sister and hover over her to protect her. Those mushy lovey dovey things, just can't fully accept...

On the other hand, perhaps i was once like this as well?? haha!! So i shouldn't wrinkle my nose at it and just force myself to face up to reality that people change. Oh well...