learning to appreciate life

I'm unemployed once again. I've finally decided not to look for another job. Call me lazy, whatever. I don't care. I have plenty of opportunities to work once i've graduated. Must as well grab the chance to enjoy now. Honestly, it was not a easy decision to make since i was initially worried about the loss of income and stuff. No income=no shopping. I'm going to shop for all i want during the GSS period. After that, i'm going to lead a life of a pauper and tighten my budget. Eat homecooked food instead. Hee!

The tragic incidents which had happened in our neighbouring countries-cyclone in myanmmar and earthquake in China, once again reinforce the fact that i should appreciate and treasure life and what i have. Even though my relationship with my parents is far from exemplary since we hardly make the effort to understand each other, at least we don't glower and snap at each other like other dysfunctional family. Honestly, my parents give me a lot of freedom. They don't restrict the places that i go or impose curfews and stuff. I like to think it's because they have trust in me. Anyway, i'm a good girl which should be able to put their minds at ease. I don't do hanky panky and have my whole body decorated with hickeys. I don't go clubbing till the wee hours and come home inebriated and spew vomit everywhere like a water gun. I don't do drugs, smoke nor join gangs, coming home and bringing heart attacks to my parents by having a tattoo of a big red rose on my back or breaking my neck due to excessive shaking brought about by ecstacy. I don't put myself in a peril or allow myself to be compromised by having sex and end up like Juno (the movie) bringing both disgrace and sadness to my parents. After typing all these, i suddenly realise i'm a goody goody kid and i'm so proud of myself. If i were to have kids in future, i hope they'll emulate me.

Although my parents are lacking in some places, i'm thankful still for they provide me with the basic necessities and do not abuse me like that perverted dad who locked his daughter up in the basement and fathered 7 or 8 kids with her. Imagine having sex with your daughter. That's like so immoral and only someone with a depraved mind will do so. Totally gross and unethical. Back to the point, my parents respect and trust me thus giving me much freedom which i should be thankful of. We can't always get what we want plus it's not as though i'm a 100 marks daughter. I'm such a sarcastic daughter who's never hesitant to talk back to my mum especially causing her to sprout white hair. She has a farm of white hair on her head i think. I'm lazy and do not have much goals or aspirations. I'm just trudging around like a headless chicken. I don't share my whatsoever secrets or nitty gritty things with my parents. They are like not the first people to know what's happening to me.

But still, i'm a likeable daughter.

I was just telling Chan Mali yesterday that i hope nus doesn't send me a letter because i don't want to have to make an agonising choice. AND what a coincidence, yesterday afternoon, i received a humongous envelope from nus. I'm in a dilemma over how i should feel... Rejoice then sulk cause i need to make a difficult choice?

Help!!