rain collector

Finally, i can wake up and give a genuine smile that radiates from within. No half-hearted, constipated, tired smile... No wonder people always say that they seek solace from their homes. There goes the saying 'there's no place like home'.

Actually, i had planned to stay back in hall till Saturday to complete my term essay and of course to have more time alone for self reflection. Mum smsed me saying that we'll be going for supper and to come home instead. Guess they were worried i would end up emoing alone in hall and no one would be there by my side to support me.

The moment i reached home, i had a counselling session. I've gained enlightenment. Glad to clear the preoccupations in me. Now i can finally sleep in peace.... Hmm... i always sleep in peace... Not a good example. Finally i am able to gain back my sense of humour.

Sorry for acting like a water fountain last week. Sorry for making friends and loved ones worried. Thinking back, i was acting like a sully, lethargic, exhausted, moody, bad-tempered, frustrated bitch last week. Freaking stressed up.

Even though i'm still stressed but the stress level has been shrank to a minimal level. I'm still physically and mentally tired... But at least i'm able to smile. :) Things aren't looking great now, yet, i can see humour in other things. AND, i don't have to hide my emotions anymore. It's tough trying to pretend everything's ok and hide from own's frustrations from others...

Rainbow signifies

optimism and happiness
My grey clouds are finally gone...

By hook or by crook, i'm going to pull through. I don't care whether my results sucks or what. As long as i do my best and i'm happy. I'm not going to bow down to the pressure and freaking mootood system. I want to be the happy care-free retard!

Finally, i've finally came out of the hole i had dug for myself.

Guess it's up to your own to climb out the shithole.

I'm shit-free.

Yay!