rain collector

I'm suffering from guilt and i think i totally deserved it...

Mummy called to ask me to go to help her carry stuff home after work while i was studying at the airport. I was damn tired and just felt it was too troublesome to go and help her. Guess i sounded too agitated or something during the phone call, much to her displeasure.

Back home, she went off rattling that she went ntuc to buy groceries for the family... And in the fits of the moment, she said something along the line that 'studying really that tiring meh?' and 'that doesn't suffice as an excuse'.

Ok... studying isn't physically tiring, it's mentally. But because i'm hooked on caffeine and today, i didn't have my regular fix of it--> that's why i was damn tired.

But i totally agree that study isn't everything although i kind of felt hurt when my mum said it. Nobody is perfect anyway. It's just the way she had put the message across... Anyway, back to the point... I think i've focused too much on studying. Not that it's not good but it kind of makes me feel detached from the rest of the civilisations. I've lost touch on the human aspects. Communication, love, care, kindness, helpfulness blah blah blah...

I'm such a failure...

Time to change for the better... studying isn't everything. Character's more important.