rain collector

As much as i want to escape, i know i can't.

I want to shun away from things but a part of me knows i want to be there by their sides.

As much as i want to protect myself, i also want to share their pain.

I have my obligations to fulfill...

Exams are near the corner and i foresee stress is going to haunt me like again.

I'm a coward for running away from things but at the same time, i don't want to be a burden to the already tensed up feeling at home by being an emo stressed up crap.

OH SHUCKS??!! What should i do??

To return to a tensed up home or just stay throughout in hall till exams...

Maybe i should stay next week as a trial.

I do not wish to be a liability to anyone.

I can only be a liability to myself.


Dad called me just now. Said he's taking a break from work and is going to malaysia during the weekend. He asked me whether i want to go which obviously i can't.

Times like this ... i want to scream at him 'YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH NOW??'

But it's no use.

This is the harsh reality of life. Painful and cruel, yet no one can understand.

That's how detached we are... ...