I know it isn't very good to feel suicidal but then...
I'm feeling suicidal...
If i'm going to receive another failing grade, i think i'll really jump into tj's fish pond this time round and haunt the school forever and ever...
I envision myself dying and all my agony will come to an end...
My resilience is dented, my strength is hit to down low, my immune system is ravaged by promo virus... ...
I wish i have a shield to protect myself from the cruelty of life... ...
I'm feeling a sense of loss and despair... ...
No amount of comfort can work for the time being...
I'm retreating into 'the space'
The familiar space i'd stayed in before...
where no one can get in and understand what i'm feeling...
Even in my space, i can't seem to be able to cry...
Too tired, too numbed to do so...
It seems that crying out is good thing alleviate one's sorrows...
But nothing falls out of my eyes...
I'll just wait in that little space and wait for the tears to fall...
Seek solace in that space ofmine...
Hopefully, i'll recover...
( Give me time to be alone...)
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