Blissful thursday!

I like thursdays! It's an early dismissal day for me. lessons ended at 12.30pm and off i went to TM for lunch wif Chan Mali.It's been a long time since i last went lunching at other places beside the vicinity if tj after school on thursday.

I have a colossal amount of things to buy... If i were to pen the things i want on a list, i think it'll fill up the whole of an A4 sized paper... AH!! The problem is, i'm as poor as a churchmouse. AH!!!! This is so beeebebeee frustrating!! AH!! Looking at things you really really want to buy yet you can't afford to cause your wallet is so light that it can float on water and yet the feeling of wanting that thing continues to bite on you... THAT FEELING EXACTLY! AH!! It's the fourth time i'd ah-ed but AH!!! I don't like this feeling...

Do i sound like a spoilt brat?

Anyway, the same applies to my results. it's damn demoralising when i studied yet i flunked the test. It makes me wonder what's the point of studying in the first place. Sacrificing my beauty sleep and stuff... What's the point? The situation gets murkier when the teacher says something like "this shouldn't be the results that you all get in J2." This sentence threw me off the edge and honestly, i'm on the tip of panic.

Like what my GP tutor said the other day... it's ok to fail. Success isn't final and failure isn't fatal. without any sorts of set-back cum failure, it's like having no blemish on your face. It's saddening cause you won't know what's it like to have a pimple. Funny things aside, i find it pretty philosophical...

It's time to revise my study methods and seriously buck up. But then, i'm not going to let my mood be controlled by my results. Anyway, life isn;t about achieving good results man... The most important aspect of life is that i've tried my best and period. It's not as though bawling till my eyes pop out and do somersaults in the air will revert or change anything... Life goes on...

I went to the library. I figured that i haven't been reading for ages. Reading in the sense, books that i like and not some boring sleep inducing GP essays/newspapers/times mag/newsweek. Books that have humour and fun injected into them. Yeah! Managed to find alot of books written by my favourite authors!! Ecstatic!!

Chan Mali went with me as well. It's amazing that she managed to borrow two books without browsing much. I was the one who found the books for her! OMG! Chan Mali! The same applies when we go shopping. she says she wants to go shopping. In the end, she'll just stand at one corner and won't move a finger while i'll be the itchy hands prodding at fiddling with the clothes and other random stuff... Up till this day, i can't fathom how she managed to get her shopping done without moving much...

Time to do GP research! bye!