Mixed emotions

WE GOT GOLD WITH HONOURS!!

Oh man!! I have so so so much stuff to blog about... *take a deep breath* here goes... Prepare to be bored to death. Beware of your eyeballs when you roll your eyes. I'm so proud of the ensemble and myself! Hehe!!

I actually 'feel the music' as what Mr liauw always says when we were up on stage at SCH. I actually bobbed my head and smiled k! I'm so proud of myself for that! This is because i always do not smile and bob my head vigorously enough during practices. Wahaha!! According to Huichan, she was looking at her fretboard and from the corners of her eyes, she had a shock when she saw me smile. Whee! I smiled! Can anyone believe it?!

Let's replay the scene at SCH:
I nearly died at SCH cause my court shoes were too big and i tripped many times with eugenie laughing at me. I was glad that i was wearing like a waitress instead of some funny weird pink gowns or gowns with ostentatious ribbons. I remembered laughing at the guitaron player from Mjc if i'm not wrong cause he was only slightly taller that the guitaron. we had the final practice at the 'tuning room' and didn't tune our guitars. Afterwhich was a mental blank as i was trying to stay focused and dodn;t talk. Next thing i knew, we were whizzed off onto the stage.

I saw my friends among the audience before we bowed. I smiled cause i felt an odd feeling somewhat at ease cause i knew my friends were there looking at and supporting me.Once my butt touched the chair, my vision automatically shrank and i had only Mr liauw in my eyes. (romantic ah?) But i must admit i spent quite a portion of the time staring at his ultra cool tie instead.

Before we sat down, one string of ACS(i) guys purposely plonked their butts on the first row and gave us the 'eye power'. i remembered cringing my eyebrows, frowning at them cause i seriously believed they did that on purpose. Give us stress or something. Too bad i wasn't scared. They looked too cartoon to scare me.

The atmosphere was quite tense after playing cause we knew we screwed up. Shall not go into details on that cause it's over and we got GWH anyway.

Went back to school feeling damn drained after the performance. After that was a dynamo. we quickly grabbed our bags and rushed back to SCH for the results because mr liauw it was important for us to go back. The whole bunch of us took 38 to bedok interchange. I think i pissed the bus driver off cause i deliberately made the bus driver and the passengers waited for me to slowly get up the bus. I pretended to search for my ez link card and stuff cause i knew there were still people behind wanting to board the bus. Had a mini pinic in the bus.

Blast off all the way to tanjong pagar. I knew i acted like a siao za bo when i saw shanelle! I miss that girl!

Sat at the concert hall and waited for the results. i saw eugene turning green like going to vomit that kind because he was really very very nervous. Dearest audrey got influenced by eugene and went banging her head on the seat in front. She even used her shoe bag which contained her court shoes to wham her head. (Btw, she had a blue black the next day) Huichan slept. Huixian looked real calm and listened to her mp3. I told her that she looked composed to me. Apparently, she told me that she listened to her mp3 cause she was tense. No expression. Typical huixian. Up till this day, i still don't know how she looks like when she's nervous. Her expression 24/7 the same. But i like her cool, laid back manner! Woo!

I only felt nervous when the emcee announced the first school got GWH! It was like thunder strike! First school already kena GWH liao... TPJC which was before us also kena GWH. I was telling myself die die man! When i heard that we got GOLD WITH HONOURS,the feeling was like able to shit after three days of constipation. relief! relief! and more relief! We went into a state of euphoria! We were the first school that popped up from our seats to do tj cheers. We were the loudest in the hall. Show the rest of the schools tj is not some mugger school k! I was so proud of ourselves when we were the first to cheer!

Eugene damn funny la! He got sabo-ed by pong and jin chaw to do the kallang wave so that the rest will follow. He popped up from his seat and did the wave while the rest was permanently stuck to our seats and stared back at him. We laughed at him and people sitted at the back laughed at him but laughed with us! During picture-taking, he got taupoked by the guys. Imagine the smallest guy of the entire ensem got taupoked by people twice his size multiply by around 8 or more... poor thing. But still, i couldn't help laughing.

I think we deserve GWH as well... After spending 3 months plus slogging our asses off for it. Seeing the number of practices increase like singapore's shares from two times per week till 6.Didn;t reach home till the sky was dark and had dinner at 8 plus. Having to stay up late to mug for exams and chiong tutorials. Feeling stressed. Having to change section from prime 3 to 1 and to relearn the song again. I felt angry towards some teachers who couldn't understand us and wonder why we were spending so much time on our pdps. The pressure and heat we felt of the expectations on us to get GWH. I always kena for not bobbing my head properly and looking damn stoned.

BUT we survived and emerged victorious from the battle!

Thanks to the encouragement from everyone in the ensemble. The exco for pushing us to do our best! People were like santa clauses giving out comfort food to spur each other on. My fellow prime 1 mates for all the fun and laughter. Shall dedicate one blog entry to thank them some day.

strange but I'm missing SYF.Having some kind of mixed emotions. I feel proud of myself for putting up a great job on thursday. I enjoyed myself on stage.I'm damn damn ecstatic to know that we got what we want and worked for. However, i feel an odd sense of melancholy that syf is over and we'll get to see less of each other. Even though syf pracs, i would admit, weren't kind of enjoyable cause we were constantly stressed and dead tired. But i'll miss the time whereby all of us encouraged each other to go on and all the sweet things. I had fun and laughter with some of my prime mates. The super lame jokes that we shared kept me awake and stayed strong. i'm sad that this is going to be over. It's so unbelieveable that we had been practising for 3 months plus already. time passes very fast come to think of it. During the three months plus, we bonded, we grew, we bloomed and we matured. Oh man.. i feel like crying ...

SYF People, hazel loves you!! and a big thank you to everyone!

Thanks mel for the support we gave each other all these times. U did well too!

xiexie shanelle for reading my complaints through emails...

thx layling for supporting me and listening to the details of my mundane life.

My classmates for tahaning me cause i was an irritant by humming/singing syf songs during lecture, tutorial, lunch, in the toilet, practically everywhere i go.

7 jie meis gang for rushing down all the way from bedok to SCH to support us! Real touched!

Adillia, zheya, shuhui, grace for giving us chocolates.

Friends who wished me luck and gave me hugs!

My family who supported me all the way!

I feel so blissful that i'm going to die.