The beach

I love the beach!!!

I like the sparkling sea water! It's seductive enough to entice one to swim in it...
Once upon a time, on a sandy island known as Larby island......
there lived a princess who loves to stare forlornly at the sea. She's pining for her darling Prince Charming to come back from war in Teriyaki chicken island... ...
Everyday, regardless whether it's rain or shine, she'll pace up and down the mighty LONG jetty, hoping to catch a glimpse of the ship which her darling Prince Charming will be in... (Btw, she cycles at times too which explains the existence of the blue bicycle at the bottom right of the picture.)
The cloudy sea water. It seems to me that singapore's sea water is getting abit clearer. *applause*
A majestic view of the sea!!
The story doesn't just end there... ... Princess Ah Chan comes down from the jetty but her sight doesn't leave the sea as she's still anticipating the return of her darling Prince Charming. Tears rolled down her eyes while she stood staring at the sea.... "when will my darling come back?!" she wailed. Her cries are sorrowful enough to generate a tsunami.

Anyway, that's just a joke. Everything that had to do with the princess and her darling are entirely fiction. (wah lao! HC is going to kill me)

I was super suay cause i rented a lao ah ma bike that creaks whenever i paddle. People were staring at me while i was cycling because of the loud creaking sounds the bicycle generated. It was loud and embarrassing. i think there was something very wrong with the gears. Wanted to change another bike but the shopowner of the bicycle rental store reassured me that everything is alright. Ya...my ass lah! Such an irritating bike. So difficult to cycle plus the brakes were darn loose. What if i cycle down a slope and then cannot brake how? I'll fly off the bike and the entire nation will mourn the premature death of a vivacious young girl with a bright and promising future... ...

After the wonderful time spent baking under the sun at east coast beach, clone and i proceeded to Far East. We wanted to buy some clothes but ended up finding none that is/are suitable to our tastes and preferences. We had lunch at Han's...

My masterpiece! It's a heart made up of ketchup, chilli, pepper and salt....
Another picture of the heart that i'd made. Ain't it cute?

Another amusing incident took place at Orchard Mrt station. One young lady approached and stuffed a namecard into my hand. She claimed she represented some modelling agency and i suspect they were looking for some potential models.

Lady: I would like to have your contact number and name cause i think you're goodlooking.

Hazel: (stunned) No thanks!

Lady: Trust me! You're really good looking. Can i have your number and name?

Hazel: NO thanks!

The lady snatched the namecard away from me and that's it...

I have a mirror at home... The mirror is a honest fellow. It tells me exactly how goodlooking/ugly i look. I know where i rank and i'm not those naive girls who easily fall prey into such things. What model? My foot lah!!

I seriously think the lady wanted my handphone number so she could spam me! Yes! If not give my number to some dubious company then i'll have weird people calling me late at night to request for 'special' service... ...

Me being the ever cynical me... hahaha!!

Continuation

This is what happened yesterday... The qi jie mei smiling sweetly !! Yay!!

There are supposed to be more pictures of the birthday girl and qijiemei. Unfortunately, stupid blogger got some server problem which means i cannot upload the photos. damn it!! Shall do it next time.

If it weren't for my cuckoo internet connection ARGH!!!

Today's entry will be littered with lotsa pictures! Don't say i didn't warn you...

I'm gonna be fat!! Had egg+ baked beans+ taiwan sausage (xiang chang)+ one hotdog+ Two tiny cheese sausages for lunch.

High tea consists of :

Butter cake!! The dowager was in a surprising good mood and baked it... Yummy!
I helped in the pressing, rolling and pinching part... You know what they are?
After baking... It became golden brown butter chocolate chip cookies!!! Whee!! I had a sense of accomplishment eating the cookies i baked. I won't have to buy cookies from Famous Amos anymore since i can bake them and i reckon they taste about the same... hehe!
Pizza! Who needs to go to pizza hut when you can have a DIY pizza. The dowager made it!! It's visually less appealing compared to those from pizza hut but neverthelesss, it's still delicious!

So, how can you expect me not to grow fat when i'm living in a family who can cook amost anything?

AUDREY took an unflattering photo of me and claimed that she is a great photographer somemore. *puke*

Ms Ng, the ever so funny and crappy bio teacher is leaving for the 'dark side'. Yesterday's farewell celebrations for her right after her lecture was touching. It was meant to be a surprise lah! She actually thought we were going to have some welfare talk which was in fact the farewell party for her. Lights were switched off and many other teachers started strolling in and we sang the song.. "auld lang syne". Anyway, i Hate that song. I have nothing against the Ms Ng, let me make things clear. I just don't like the song cause it brought back horrific memories to me. I had to sing the song during music test in primary school and ya... the entire experience was traumatising.

Suddenly, i realised that maybe it isn't bad being a teacher in future after all. Being a teacher allows one to interact with the young thus can stay young at heart. During teachers' day can receive alot of presents somemore. Lots of school holidays to rot and enjoy. Students will respect you provided you are a good teacher. I can traumatise my students like how teachers in jc are doing me... Set a super super duper ultra bloody difficult test paper to kill them. Afterwhich, i'll laugh maliciously while marking their scripts. MUAHAHAHA!!

Anyway, the point is.. i'll miss Ms Ng and her sense of humour. Sniff... sniff...

Another bad news is that my bio tutor won't be following up with us. There will be a change of bio tutor next year. SOBS!!!!!!! She invited us to her humble abode during the holidays. Isn't it nice of her? SOBS!!! I'll MISS HER......WAAH!!!

After school, it's up to us to plan a surprise for the birthday girl. For your information, it's CHERYLENE'S birthday TODAY!!!

We celebrated her bday for her in school yesterday.

To buy time, Jieying and i dragged Cherylene to accompany us to the toilet on the pretext that i needed to pee urgently which in actual fact i needed to pee but not urgently lah...

While the rest ran out of school to buy cake and matches...

Then we went to the canteen to wait for their call. Jieying and i were glancing everywhere anxiously. We told cherylene that we were waiting got the rest of the 'qijiemei' gang. I came up with a lie (opps) that some of them were discussing pw and might take some time. Wahaha!

Mingyan: Do u have a lighter?

Me: No. I don't smoke.

I felt like slapping myself after saying that... Like duh~

Anyway, they succeeded in getting the cake and stuff and we went to the marquee area to celebrate...

This is me smsing my boyfriend while the rest prepared by lighting up the candles and stuff...

I was just joking!! Not boyfriend lah!!

Supposed to

I'm supposed to be doing bio tutorial worksheet but i couldn't help running over here to blog... Wahaha!!

Drawing genetic diagrams can make one go cuckoo... ...

Anyway, i got the SYF score. I don't know whether i should feel happy or sad about it. I'm playing chords... I thought my chords sucks. Actually, there's no need for me to think that my chords sucks cause it really does sucks. So, let's pray for a miracle...

The beansprouts in the score is once again super tiny. It's rather strenuous to the eyes. Looking at the chords can be pretty overwhelming. I nearly got a heart attack cause it really looks freaky. Anyway, once again, i'm going to pray fervently for a miracle to happen and i'll be able to master the piece in one piece.

While Eugene (Chief CI) was rambling on about how to take care of our guitars and introducing the special guitars, i must admit i was struggling to stay awake. I was sitting cross legged on the floor, with my elbows resting on my legs and i was pinching my cheeks to stay awake. So, i think i must have looked rather silly/confused/blur or whatsoever, Eugene singled me out.... Wahaha!! I got a shock.

While i was pinching myself to stay awake, a group of girls sitting nearby were laughing at me. One of the girls is HuiChan. i was told later by Huichan that they were laughing at me cause i looked comical. Oh goodness! I didn't know they were looking at me let alone laughing at me as i was focusing on keeping myself awake. Yikes!

I hope my appeal to continue taking econs h2 will be successful. It's not as though im passionate about econs or something. If there weren't any h1 or h2 bloody system, i will jolly well drop the damn subject. I apologise to those econs fanatics but i really do dislike econs. Sorry!

But, i still hope i'll be successful so that i don't have to take CSQ which makes up 70% of the total marks. (Background info: I died horribly in CSQ so if i were to drop to h1, which means i'll die a more agonising death.) Also, i won't have to change class.

Giam Chai was darn cynical today. She read out the results of each person in the class and started to give comments on each person. Some super fortunate ones got positive comments.Some not that lucky ones were shot at like siao. For me, i lied somewhat in between bah. Ok, mine comments were generally positive... it's just that it sounded weird to me...

She said something that "hazel is alive in class. "

I thought it would be more appropriate to describe people as lively and not alive. Like all these time, she thought i was dead. Only today that she realised that i'm breathing or what...

Wahahaha!! Funny sia...

I didn't know i come across to her as 'alive' . i thought i'm always dead during her lessons... ... Anyway... *shrug*

Boredom can kill

I decided i was bored...so i went off to do more personality tests. I'm trying to know myself better lah... :P

You Belong in Fall

Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times... You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for you

What Season Are You?

I thought i would belong in summer since singapore is a tropical country, summer all day long so i must somehow be a summer girl right?

You are 80% Gemini

How Gemini Are You?

Yippee!! I was told by Huichan that i'm a gemini so i went to do a test to further confirm the fact that i'm a gemini. I'm convinced now!!

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise. Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself. You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books. You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life. You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world. A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Wah!! Really ah?!

Your Brain is 80% Female, 20% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Yay!! I'm happy with the results of this test. It porves that i'm not masculine cause my brain isn't. Lalalalala!!

I'm mourning for the back beetle which i accidentally kicked and sent it flying which resulted in it whamming against the wall and unfortunately, it died of what i suspect, brain concussion. Opps! I didn't mean to kick it. It's just that i didn't notice that it was on the floor. Anyway, it died a pitiful death.

Shopping

Shopping is therapy to me!! My clone dated me out today as a form of my much needed therapy after the traumatising time i had last week... We went to VivoCity!! *drum rolls*

Vivo City was big and like what many had said, one can get lost there easily. We nearly got lost. However, we relied on our wits and intelligence to get us through... We survived!! *applause*

Personally, i find vivo okay lah. Not that impressive like what many had described. Personally, i don't really like the layout cause it's super confusing and can get lost super easily. I like the floor tiles. The floor tiles had glitters which made me feel pretty glamourous walking on them. Imagine glittery floor! So hollywood-ish. I think HuiChan is going to scold me siao!

We toured the place for 2 hours before deciding on the place to have lunch--Internet Cafe. It had super fantastic view!!
The bottom one is mine!! Chicken torquilla. (something like that lah). The one above is HuiChan's-- Chicken in a basket. It's really in a basket. Look at the red basket!
Our food again!! Looks delicious right? Slurp!
Hazel: Mine!! ALL MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Smiling gleefully at my food.
My clone doing an imitation of Sadako. Just joking lah! Opps! She was just pretending to be camera shy.... wahaha!!
You see you see!! I told you she was just pretending to be camera shy. Look at how blissful she looks trying to swallow up the french fry.
Vivo is near world trade centre or rather world trade centre is within vivo. I don't know how it works. Anyway, we got to see magnificent cruises while gorging ourselves in the cafe. Nice right? I want to board one, go on a cruise and not come back for school.
They aren't lollipops. They are CABLE CARS!!! I wanna sit on a CABLE CAR!!!!
That's Sentosa btw. It's pretty blur though... Blame it on the damn haze.
Sentosa once again!! I wanna go as well.

I got tired of vivo quite a while. So, Huichan suggested popping over at PS. (pang sai) Wahahaha!! Plaza singapura lah!! Vivo was getting more crowded as time passes. I didn't like the feeling of weaving my way through the crowd.

from PS, we walked all the way to Orchard. Yippee!! I discovered that i'm a timid fellow.

I wanted to pierce my ear yet i'm scared of piercing my ear. I went up and down many times cause i was hesitating whether to pierce anot. In the end, i succumbed to fear and didn't pierce. Now, i'm sitting in front of the computer, crying my heart now cause i regretted not piercing my ear!! Why do i have to be so timid???

Yay... im a frivolous fella...

Anyway, shopping was fun!! Bought a couple of things. I'm happy!! Yay!!

But im won't be happy tomorrow. ...

Decided

Ok... I failed econs. In another words, i have to drop one subject to h1 level.

The subject that im going to drop will definitely be ECONS!

Bloody econs! I don't like econs anyway... I suck badly in it. Hence, it may be a wise choice for me to drop it. I apologise to those econs fanatics cause i really do hate econs which is evident from my ceaseless whinings and attitude towards it. I believe that my brain is not made to study econs.

The bad part is i may have to change class. After one year with my classmates, of course i'll develop some kind of bond with my classmates right?! Of course i'm sad lah!

But then, i've been trying my best to convince myself that everything is going to be ok... ... I'm still trying trying trying...

Plus, i believe that i'm highly adaptable, friendly, strong, determined, gungho, humourous, optimistic (sometimes), sociable, i should be able to survive anywhere, even if i'm dumped mercilessly into a desert.

have faith in myself and friendship.

I'm not going to cry until my whole face is stained with tears, blood, and mucous. I've many people telling me that i'm a brave girl. A brave girl shouldn't cry.

In your eyes,
I see your tears.
Tears which reflect a colossal amount of sorrow.
Tears that will only fall when solitude creeps in.
The tingling sensation you feel inside,
makes you pray fervently for it to go away.
When melanchonly strikes,
nothing can stand in its way.
The smile you wear slowly ebbs away,
you wish you can blend into the pastel cream walls.
You never existed and you never will.
If only you will let the tears fall,
crying may wash away the sorrows.
After the tears evaporated,
only a saltish trail remains.
The sun will continues to rise the next day,
warm comforting rays beam upon you.
You will be able to smile from within,
for things may have changed but most remain.
In that instant you may think,
crying isn't that bad after all.

Just a random poem that i wrote. Haven't been writing poems for a long long time. So, my first attempt after a long long time. It may sound weird lah. Plus my england not very good lah. So pardon me. :P

Im ok

I'm feeling much better now!

Thanks for everyone's concern.

My classmates especially qi jie mei, Mel, Y.teen, Audrey, my cousin and others who helped me one way or another even through their smiles. I'm better now...

Yesterday was the most unglam day of my life.

A day which i got tears streaming down my face, mucus mixed with blood was leaking out of my nostrils. (i had nose bled) It's been years since i my nose bled. I think the last time it bled was when i was 6 years old... ...

So, i had a shock yesterday when i had nose bled cause i thought i was going to have leukiemia and die like all other actresses especially in korean dramas. For a moment, i really thought so... For your information, i've been very imaginative since a young age...

My cousin was really sweet. He gave me alot of stuff. One super cute pen and many others. He saw me bursting yesterday and children will always be children. They use innocent yet touching manners to cheer me up. I love my cousin!!

I love my friends too!!

AHH!!!!!! PW!!!!!!!!

I hate the old giam chai!!

What's wrong with her?

She's damn bloody irritating lah!!

Giam chai giam chai giam chai giam chai ... ... ... ...

Losing myself

I'm losing myself...

Where has ever so proud, strong and determined girl gone to?

In the mirror, i only see a despondent stranger. A stranger who doesn't radiate smile from within.

A stranger who is tired of everything.

A stranger who feels like giving up.

A stranger who doesn't have the will to carry on.

Today is one of the worst day of my entire life. I hit bottom of the empty pit.

I seriously thought i'll do better in some subjects and yet i was disppointed...

Even though promo isn't everything, it's nearly everything right?

The dam burst the moment i reached home. So it was tissue smeared with tears, mucus and blood. It's been years since my nose bled. How lucky can i get.

My family was shocked to me my sudden outpour and they remained super silent. But then, i rather much prefer them to ignore me cause the silence was somewhat deafening. Then after all the blood, tears plus mucus, i went up to my room and slept for three hours straight...

I'm tired, anyone understands? "change class then change class lor" It's easier said than done.

I know my family is giving me some time to cool down and stuff but somehow i rather much prefer them to rant at me or something. Offer a hug? Just one hug maybe i'll recover faster... If not lend a listening ear? Try to get me talking and stuff cause if i'm going to carry on like this, i'll lose myself.

Who can understand??????

Nobody...

I don't understand myself either.

"If you can't follow it, create your own culture." a quote from Melissa.

Thanks melissa! I'll only mope for today. Hopefully, i'll recover by tomorrow.

I got to treasure the last moments i have... ...

Whatever happiness there is, give it ALL to me...

Depressed and deflated

I know it isn't very good to feel suicidal but then...

I'm feeling suicidal...

If i'm going to receive another failing grade, i think i'll really jump into tj's fish pond this time round and haunt the school forever and ever...

I envision myself dying and all my agony will come to an end...

My resilience is dented, my strength is hit to down low, my immune system is ravaged by promo virus... ...

I wish i have a shield to protect myself from the cruelty of life... ...

I'm feeling a sense of loss and despair... ...

No amount of comfort can work for the time being...

I'm retreating into 'the space'

The familiar space i'd stayed in before...

where no one can get in and understand what i'm feeling...

Even in my space, i can't seem to be able to cry...

Too tired, too numbed to do so...

It seems that crying out is good thing alleviate one's sorrows...

But nothing falls out of my eyes...

I'll just wait in that little space and wait for the tears to fall...

Seek solace in that space ofmine...

Hopefully, i'll recover...

( Give me time to be alone...)

Magic words

I need the magic words!!

I need it now!!

The magic words are : Promo isn't everything!!

Depression strikes again!

The mood in tjc is sinking to down low...

Got back chem and maths papers today. Was super depressed when i saw my marks for maths especially. I know the grade is expected but then i still feel pretty indignant about it. Maths was the earliest subject that i started studying, which means i had spent the most time navigating my way through the subject and yet... ... AH!!! Y does it have to be like this...

The mood in my class was uptight as well... lots of tension sia... Especially during maths period. My teacher told us that if we want to know our results, we can go out one by one to him to find out... wah piang! So pressurising. I didn't want to know my grade at first but anyway i still went up in the end lah. I don't like the feeling of suspense either. Must as well how badly i've died and get reincarnated again...

Chem is depressing as well but then i didn't study the subject properly and i spent the least amount of time on it. So... ... i can't blame anyone but myself.

I hope that maths will moderate if not... ... i don't know how to continue...

I felt myself tearing during math cause i felt sad when i saw my jie meis cried... ...

But then, i haven't been crying for a long time so i guess my tear duct isn't functioning normally... but i must admit i was super duper sad during maths period. But then i felt better after telling myself the magic words and of course the outing with huichan meant to heal the heartbreak...

So, i'm feelign neutral at this moment. I won't guarantee this feeling will last till 8 am tomorrow where there will be another series of traumatising news crashing down on me...

Tomorrow still got pe. Like who will be in the bloody mood to have pe? Siao!

Truely the end...

I have twenty minutes to blog. Afterwhich, i'll have to bathe, pack my stuff, take a bus to tampines interchange to meet my friends for... PW!! shucks! Not because i have to meet my friends lah... It's because of the damn PW. PW never fails to piss me off...

It was Tj's Open House yesterday. Not as lively as i had expected. The same applied to me. I wasn't lively as i ought to be. Right before Open house, Cherylene and i were summoned by our teacher to discuss on our group's WR. So, it's beack to square one again. We have to edit till me go mad and foam at our mouths. It's truely madness i tell you. PW can really make one kee siao. (it's hokkien btw) AH!!!!!!!!

So, we had to meet today to finish up our WR and stuff... ... Madness...

Maybe, i should do what Tao Suan said. Enjoy the process of doing PW. It's super bothersome and annoying but that doesn't stop us from having fun right? We can spice up the process of doing PW by gossiping, eating, sharing lame jokes... Not bad yea?

Back to the Open house... I wasn't in the mood to be enthusiastic and stuff after the PW thingy. I bet i ended up looking at a grouchy garbage bag throughout.

Sec 4 kid: (points) Look at that girl over that... she looks so haggard and grouchy... Yee...
Another sec 4 kid: In that case, better don't come to tjc if not we'll look like grouchy garbage bag on top of mouldy lettuce... Look at the uniform... wah piang!

The entire conversation above, i imagine one lah... hehe!

I'm tired of complaining about promos. Next week will determine my fate. I kind of can predict what my fate will turn out to be like so... i'll just enjoy life as it is while i can... two days to enjoy my life...

On the ride home afte one house, i saw two adorable toddlers with their maid. The two toddlers were so cute! I wanted to lug them home and i don't mind charged of kidnapping crime. They fought, beat each other, then patched up again pretty fast. Then they quarrelled, brother beat sister, sister smacked brother's face and laughed at ecah other and was fine again. Kids will be kids... Hahaha!! The little boy was funny. A tj guy sat beside the young kiddy and you know what he said...

Little boy: I don't like uncle.

UNCLE?! Wah piang! Tjc's student looks so old ah? Wahahaha!! (examine myself in the mirror..) Oh man...

I thought that i would be given an opportunity to do what my heart wants me to do, yet i wasn't given the opportunity to do so... Perhaps, it's really the end.

Not supposed to be like this

It's not supposed to be like this...

One does not spend her post-exam-day stuck in the school hub, squinting at the damn computer and try to proofread WR!!

Thanks to PW, i get to spend a fruitful day in the school's hub!

I feel so grateful and blessed to have such wonderful subject, PW, to bug me down...

Thanks to the Ding Dong Bell who implemented this shitty ahem! wonderful subject into JC's syllabus...

I'm trying very hard not to complain. Doing PW is indeed better than studying for tests, taking tests and get demoralised in the end... I'm happy! I'm trying my best to persuade myself that i'm happy! (sulks...)

ARGH!! PW makes my hair drop... wah piang!! It's such a mighty troublesome meddlesome bothersome cumbersome subject!! EEYEEW!! It's not going to be friends with me... Likewise, i don't want to befriend PW.

I found out that the more you make yourself like PW, the more you will loathe it...

Met Mr Low today after the session in the hub... Mr low's my maths teacher by the way... I had an impulse to grab his collars and pull his ears real hard. Thanks for the maths paper...

The rest of my pw mates were complaining about the maths paper while i kept quiet... I was visualising the entire grabbing and pulling of ears thing...

Mr Low: Aiyah! You all shouldn't worry. I have confident in you guys
Hazel thinking: Ya! Your confidence in me will go down into the drain if you mark my paper...
Mr Low: You know a levels gonna be the same standard?
Hazel exclaimed: Siao Ah!

Fortunately and coincidentally, mr low happened to walk into the general office at the exact time the wacky hazelnut shouted "Siao ah!"

So, i'm not looking forward to j2 nor a levels... Mr Low explained that we are the first GC (graphing calculator) batch so they predicted a levels to be hard.

I burnt 170 plus bucks on the stupid electronic gadget and here's what i got...

Anyway, i was feeling bored once again... so i went boucing off to do some personality tests...

You Are a Drama Princess (or Prince)

You're not over the top dramatic, but you have your moments. You know how to steal the spotlight... And how to act out to get your way. People around you know that you're good for a laugh. But at times, your drama gets a bit too much for everyone. Tone it down a tad, and you'll still be the center of attention.

Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

You Are 49% Feminine, 51% Masculine

You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides. You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you. You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

All the feminine people out there, please please teach me how to be feminine. any tips to be feminine? oh gosh...

Of course i don't believe this... so i went to do another similar personality test...

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

HOW??? (wails......)

Liberation!!!!!!!!!!!!

Euphoric Moment!!!!!!!

Promos over!!

O--V--E--R--

= over!!

Agony is on the halt for the moment... More agony will come when teachers have finished with marking and then... out bursts the results. I need to do intensifying exercise now to strengthen my heart so that it will be able to pull through when i receive my results...

Anyway, let's not talk about depressing stuff... yaya!! No results...

I'm happy happy happy!!

all the preparations for promos had made me sulky, restive, moody, emotional, and gibberish...

I'm back to normal again!!

I miss my computer!! Miss my blog!! Miss all my beloved loyal readers of my blog... my fans... (i imagine them to be my fans...) wahaha!! Yeah! I miss everyone on this earth!!

Oh yes! I miss shopping... Shopping is therapy for me! Whee!! Been reading from the newspapers about Vivo City's opening and all the hype. Heard it's super gigantic. Can get lost inside leh! I wanna go there and get lost!!

I've made a list of things that i wanna do after promos while i was in the midst of studying prokaryotic genome on a downright depressing day...

1) Go to the beach and bake myself... ( i tink the main reason is to eye handsome beach hunks..)
2) Go shopping--Vivo City
3) Ear piercings.. (ya...like get more ear piercings and become typecast as an ah lian but whatever~)
4) Go Escape!! (coincidentally, my aunt gave me some vouchers to escape which means... I can GO!!) I'm going to scream and destroy others' ear drums!
5) Shop for something... (ehh...im still trying to figure out what's the something...)
6) Im considering getting a holiday job...
7) Sign up for some course ( yoga perhaps? Wahahaha!! Good for backache...)
8) Bug my mum every single day to get me a new handphone
9) Watch VCDs: Princess hrs, GTO, korean drama serials until my eyes pop

These are the things that i want to do in the meantime until i think of more...

Oh ya!! I must mention this very important thing...

I survived promos!

Thanks to the encouragemnets from my friends and family...

HuiChan, Happy belated bday to u! Hope you like the hello panda biscuits i bought for u!! Whee!! Thx for ur encouraging smses and thank you to those who tahan my buggish smses...

It suddenly dawns on me that i'm loved...

by my friends and family...

That's why i'd been stopped and pulled back many times by my friends whenever i attempted to jump into tjc's fish pond...

The reason is simply my friends love me and can't bear to see me hurt myself...

(Maybe it's because they can't bear to witness the deaths of the innocent fishes swimming inside the pond)

But then, i said i'm loved by my friends means i'm loved by my friends lah!

Exams make me emotional...

Okay lah! There was reasons for me to be emotional...

Maths was a super depressing thing cause i couldn't do half of the paper... Didn't even try and stuff, just left the questions totally blank...

The saddest thing in human's history is that... maths was the subject that i'd spent the most time and efforst studying and yet...

Of course, i felt vehement and super duper depressed after maths paper... I nearly thought of committing suicide. I even discussed with audrey which is the nicest and tallest building in Singapore...

Went home and my aunt mentioned few days later that the moment i entered the house, the house was surrounded by an air of gloom. (wow!) Nobody dared to talk loudly leh...

All because of the idiotic maths paper...

At night, i even discussed with my mum that if i don't get promoted, i'll head for poly liao! Don't want to waste my life struggling in jc...

My mum and aunt offerred me comfort...

They told me that they do not expect me to get good grades and stuff. Do my best is sufficient and they will also be proud of me as well... They told me not to be so pessimistic and have more confident in myself lah... Even if i have to repeat, then repeat lor. They won't mind... They'll continue to support me...

I nearly burst out crying but it's pretty unlike me to bawl out and stuff...

I teared...

(but it could be because of the haze as well)

Mentioning about the haze... Indonesian farmers feign innocence of the effects of burning down forests... Malaysia and s'pore badly affected... and you know what the farmers say? "Must be the wind's fault"

Wow! Next time, when there's an oil spill, blame it on the fact that screw holding the oil in the barrel came loose due to impact of waves splashing on it. When there's deforestation, blame it on the fact the trees look old so they had to be cut down. When somebody farts and you smell it, blame it on the process known as diffusion. Next time someone spits on the ground, blame on the haze...

What nonsense is this? Blame on the wind?

Next time you break the law, blame it on the existence of the law which forced you to break it. Without the law, you won't be able to break it then...

WTH!

Depressed

My life is a misery...

Or so i think....

Studying and more studying makes my life super duper depressing....

The worse part is that i managed to force myself to study, glued my butt onto the chair and all sorts of extreme measures... even though i studied, the tests that i had taken so far... managed to convince me that all those attempts at trying to stick my butt on the chair was for nothing....

GP was quite difficult lah but somehow i don't have any feelings towards it...

Econs essay was bad... I was practically tearing my hair out while i was scribbling away... at the end of the econs test, my table had four strands of my precious hair. (i swept them onto the floor and pretended the hair weren't mine...)

However, i could manage that... econs was bad but then i'm ok with it...

MATHS

was mighty super duper depressing...

I managed to finish studying all the stuff to be studied. (econs--din manage to finish studying everything). It was the earliest subject that i had started preparing for promos... and now... i'm feeling so depressed... after the paper, i had immediate onset of suicidal thought... I told HuiChan my final words and my friends, all the final partings...

Huichan has to do this for me when i'm gone:
1) Slap and punch all the maths teacher whenever she bumps into them in school
2) Sneak into the maths HOD room and steal my answer sheet and burn them since they are nothing much but rubbish. (I left nearly half of the total questions blank...) No use keeping them.
3) Burn down the maths hod department

I expect the maths teacher to vomit blood when they mark my maths paper but what i can comment is...

THEY DESERVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for all the efforts they had put in to demoralise me....

I congratulate them for succeeding...

I'm depressed, demoralised and feel like bashing people up...

Promos isn't everything...

I'm trying my best to convince myself...

But somehow it's nearly everything...

i want to drown myself...

The nearest and biggest pool of water right now is the toilet bowl's.

Okay then... i shall immerse my head into the toilet bowl ...

Sayonara!

Take care!!

I'll miss u guys!