On the 29th of December 2008, Hazel decided to go MIA , left hall at 9. 50am and embarked on an emo trip...

First stop was to Marina Square where she had ice cream brownie at secret recipe. Realising her hp was going to be out of battery soon, she switched off her hp and became uncontactable. Not sure whether she had freaked anyone out for being uncontactable... anyway, she's sincerely apologetic with regards to that.

She did window shopping at marina square before heading to esplanade. the tunnel to esplanade. not a single soul in sight...

saw white balls bobbing up and down at the marina bay...
Fullerton hotel. never been there before... haha!

The flyer

i managed to take a pic of tourists admiring our marina bay

durians!

Hazel went up to the rooftop...

topview

closer to the durian

flyer again...

afterwhich, she proceeded on to the esplanade library. nice, tranquil, serene. While admiring the scenery, she also did some serious reflections.

this pic was taken while she was sitting in the library

she doodled her notebook

On her way from esplanade to cityhall mrt station, she met a group of tourists asking her for directions to peninsula plaza. Amazingly, she KNEW the way to peninsula plaza and led them there. From there, she walked to bugis.

Not contented with window shopping at bugis, she decided to do some exploring. She went to arab street and was intrigued by some stores that sold really unique stuff. She walked around looking for haji lane. She had been to haji lane during FOC with her SP because that was the venue of their first station.

she walked around in circles and was on the verge of giving up when she pushed herself to walk further more even though her feet were hurting like hell because she was wearing a pair of new shoes and wasn;t accustomed to it yet, thus leading to blisters being formed. Finally, she did find haji lane afterall.

moral of the story: do not give up. In this case, keep walking...

After exploring haji lane, she decided to throw in the towel and headed back to hall.

went to hall 8 for some emo talk with Mel. Too bad, she had finished her game. If not hazel could support her. Anyway, thank you for being a listening ear.

Thanks to those who had sent me smses to show their concerns. sorry for taking freaking long to reply. Dear friends who had msn-ed me for the same reason.

Thanks to mum for being understanding in the end.

A big thank you to SW dear for being there by my side. hugs and kisses!

I'm truly fine now. Buck up next sem and jiayou!

When one's suay somehow, you just get to meet more suay people to add on to the suayness. Like a mean joke being played...

One uncle was looking at the bus and needless to say, didn't notice i was beside him until it was too late and he bumped into me. It's ok... i know sometimes accidents do happen. WHAT i couldn't accept was he had the cheek to scold 'fuck'. Like i was the one who totally walked into his path. Like i was the one who bumped into him. Like i was the one totally UN-fucked up. WTF.

i was on the bus when there was red light and this lorry stopped beside me. God knows why i turned to look at the driver of the lorry. we had this eye contact that totally creeps me now i think of it... I hastily looked away but then, from the corner of my eyes, i saw the uncle waving fervently towards me. My natural response was to turn and look at him. THAT FREAKING DISGUSTING UNCLE WINKED AT ME AND POUTED HIS MOUTH SO THAT IT FREAKING WELL RESEMBLED SOME FREAKING DISGUSTING KISSING ACTIONS. ( on second thoughts, change 'freaking' to 'f***ing' will be more apt) ya ya ya... i'm vulgar...

And i have pent up frustrations in me that can't be released. It's like constipation. Damn irritating and vexing.

freaking out...

I'm back in hall ...

The saddest thing of all is that i have nothing to do except to fill my mind with apprehensive thoughts of how sucky my results are going to be...

Results will be out in one hr plus time...

Original plan was to sleep and view my results tomorrow

However, on second thoughts, i wonder whether i'll be able to sleep in peace knowing my results are just a 'click' away...

Stuck in a dilemma... (what am i going to do??)

Paranoia paranoia paranoia...

This is going to drive me nuts...

2 more days to my doomsday.

An intense feeling of foreboding...

Recalling how i had screwed up my papers...

Die liao la...

Time to choose a casket company...

Hazel is so gonna die...

I don't want a lot for christmas
There's just one thing i need
i don't care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All i want for Christmas is...
YOU

i won't ask for much this christmas
i don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
Cause i just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can i do
Baby all i want for Christmas is...
YOU

I don't want a lot for christmas
That is all i'm asking for
i just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all i want for christmas is...
YOU

My all time favourite christmasy song. Another i adore will be 'last christmas'. Abit too melancholic. It does stick out like a sore thumb since i'm feeling all hyped up and festive-ish.

I can say... i had the most action packed christmas eve ever. Happy, blissful, contented, loved ... awww... (enough!)

watched twilight today. I'm jealous of edward's complexion. Imagine edward is to be placed next to me, the contrast is sufficient to kill me.

NUS friends have gotten their results... Soon, it'll be my turn too. By then, i shall form this emo league whereby everyone gets down to emo. precious time is trickling.

i better cherish and savour the time left before my results are out.

Christmas is coming!! The festive atmosphere is pouring down on us. BBQ tomorrow!

Yippee! somebody is going to be bring his -------- face along! if i were him, i'll be stressed out. being confronted by a big,crazy and protective family.

Speaking of christmas, i'm craving for fruitcake... and oreo cheesecake and waffle ice cream and ramen. Except for the first, the rest has absolutely nothing to do with christmas. Just me and my cravings...

After christmas, up next will be new year. That's when we bid farewell to 2008 and say hi to 2009.

I'm currently wearing my jacket while blogging. And nope, i'm not in an air conditioned room because i'm still stuck in hall. This doesn't bode well. It means i'm falling sick. I blame it on the softball match. we continued with the match despite the rain. Now, i'm feeling the chills and wearing the ugly green SBS jacket while my roomie is only clad in her fbt singlet. See the contrast...

Even though we had lost the softball match, nevertheless i'm still proud because i think that we had put up a good fight. Today's match against hall 2 was an entertaining one. Our catcher-Joyce was super hilarious trying to distract the batters. Once she exclaimed 'wah! the batter really very tall leh!' It drew laughter from supporters of hall 2 and of course the batter was momentarily distracted because she turned to stare at joyce. Joyce even asked one batter whether she was wearing socks or not... LOL! Joyce also commented on one batter for standing too far from the home plate and the batter actually attempted to move closer. Damn funny la!

I slept just now which explains why i'm still wide awake even though i should be sleeping since i'm feeling unwell... ...

Kudos to Songwei for helping to tabao porridge for me and my roomie. Although he was damn tired, his already small eyes seemed smaller and he had spent the entire day at hall 8 cause of wei qi, he still drove out to help me tabao food. AWWW...

We seemed to be bickering and arguing with each other all the time, BUT, WE ARE STILL LOVING OK!! *burst out laughing* He's the only one who can escape unharmed for calling me an idiot/retard. If any random person tries calling me an idiot/retard, i'll pluck out the hair of the person one by one, stuff his head into the toilet bowl and use sandpaper to scrape his skin. That's how morbid i can get...

i should be feeling sick and miserable now but on the contrary i feel loved. Yay!! Shall continue with my CSI since i'm not sleepy yet...

we won the vball match against hall 1 and i'm totally neutral about it. Cause our next opponent is going to be either the pervertically sporty hall 2 or the comparably pervertically sporty hall 6. So ya... it's going to be GG again.

i'm so sick of sports i'm so sick of sports i'm so sick of sports i'm so sick of sports

I love playing sports but not on a competitive level for the obvious reasons--> competition saps away the 'fun'. Period.

I'm astounded at the speed how kids these days can change their bfs/gfs. Break up liao can easily find another gf/bf.

Call me old-fashined hag/traditional old hag/ancient relic whatsoever. I also think i belong to the wrong era...

kids these days have a more colourful love history than me. AND NOTE, i'm NOT ENVIOUS OR JEALOUS!!

One is enough and i'm satisfied with that ONE! Haha!!

I wish i can go out, savour delicious food and immerse myself into the christmas mood. Christmas night out! ARGH!!!

Date me date me date me!!

Vball match

Today is totally not my day... ...

I slept at 1 plus last night and for no reason, mysteriously woke up at 7 plus this morning...

Had stomach upset...

Had to come back to hall for vball match. Thankfully, my dad was able to send me to hall...

Stupid PIE was jammed due to some car accident i think... The weather was damn hot and the useless me got carsick.

Dad had to reach work at 12pm. So i told him to drop me off at jurong east instead. I got off the car feeling nauseous and giddy.

I heard the train at the opposite track coming. I turned and looked. Realised the train was going towards BoonLay. BOONLAY!! I glanced at the signboard. The platform i was standing on was going towards pasir ris. So i took the escalator down so that i could cross over to the opposite platform. I had to wait for 5 minutes for another train to come. If only i didn't go to the wrong platform...

Upon reaching Boon Lay interchange, i realised 199 just left. Horrors after horrors... In the end i reached NIE indoor court quite late. Supposed to meet at 12 but i think i reached at around 12.45, near 1pm. Before i could catch my breath, i was summoned for warm up on court.

I didn't have time to go back hall to change into my fbt. i ended playing in my unstretchable,hot, un-dri-fit mango's black shorts. Thankfully, it was baggy. If not my movements would be severely restricted.

And then, we got trashed by hall 2. The server was obviously aiming me can! Lucky i was swift enough to avert my face when one ball came heading towards me. If not, there's goes my beautiful face... ...

In conclusion ,today's not my day...

i'm feeling damn lethargic. I pray it isn't a sign of falling sick... If it is then die liao... Next week is going to be a horrendously busy week for me. Four matches in total. I pray i'll survive...

Therefore, i'm absolutely not looking forward to next wk. Just came back home from hall today and will be gg back again tomorrow's afternoon. Really no life... ...

I'm feeling damn sian now.......... HAI!!!!

Hall 14's Netball Girls!!

Even though we had lost both matches, i think they were well played. Our scores were pretty respectable for noobsters who have zero experience in playing netball matches.

This is only the first week of IHG and i'm already zonked out. I'm aching all over and i think the snail can beat me in walking. AND AND AND, i miss home. I'm damn sick of being stuck in NTU!!

Trainings, matches, hall olympiad's stuff, pictures blah blah blah... ...

I totally crave for an overseas trip!! Even a one night stay across the causeway sounds totally exciting to me. Wanted to ask mum to organise a trip. I don't mind going to sentosa although technically it's not an overseas trip. But, i know it'll be difficult for her to apply leave now since the festive season is coming... ...

HAI!!!

Hazel is having butt pain and on top of that, her shoulders are aching.

She didn't sleep well last night. Reasons, she doesn't know. Waking up intermittently to stare at the cream coloured ceiling.

She'll be having netball competition later and may the force be with her.

Pray she won't fall asleep during the match, or get whacked by the ball or trip over her own foot.

My stupid cousin... Haha!
Spastic look

We had post-exam celebrations at Dave's house... Steamboat party! Ate until i felt like a whale.

Jieying and me!

My beloved roomie and me!

Delphi's girls!

Next week is going to be another busy week. Even though it's holidays now, i don't actually have the 'it's holidays now!' kind of mood. And from the pictures above, somehow i think i'm moving closer towards resembling a malay. I'm dark and decorated with bruises all over my body from all the monstrous trainings... Hai~ I'm not particularly emo but i can't help thinking that my life sucks...

It's a frenzy headless aimless chase for ... ... what?

I hate lizards!! Freaking hate lizards!! I can hear lizards screeching right outside the window now!! ARGH!!

Happy Birthday Mel!! The melted chocolate and the half burnt candles... erm... hope you don't mind. We have already tried our best... Haha!! Had fun talking with all my beloved girl friends at ADM. The number one romantic spot in NTU. (Is it?) It was wonderful reminiscing the good old days we had in TKGS and TJC. :)

To Mel: sorry for not being able to bunk over at your room tonight. Can't stay up all night and chat... :( This is because Hazel is totally into the idea of being grilled alive at the softball field tomorrow. I apologise...

On my way back to hall from ADM, roomie texted me saying that she saw a lizard at my desk. AHHH!!! Damn disgusting can!! The moment i reached my room, i stared at the lizard and screamed for goodness sake. Once again, SW had to come to my rescue! Life's tough being my bf... You'll get to receive telephone calls at 11 plus and the caller will be screaming in your ears in this totally irritating high pitched voice---- to catch some freaking disgusting gross insects/reptiles.

The poor bf had to trudge all the way from blk 65 to 66 to help the irritating gf catch the freaking grotesque insect/reptile. If not, she won't be able to rest in peace... And when she can't rest in peace, there's absolutely no way she'll let her bf rest in peace...

Looking on the bright side, just now was the time for the bf to show the gf the macho side of him by catching the ugly lizard. Good opportunity for the bf to show off and make the gf awestruck... The gf now thinks her bf is not bad, quite man.

Anyway, back to where i've started, lizards irritate and at the same time, scare the shit out of me...

I was having this msn convo with this friend whose blog really touched me recently and i was contemplating at first whether to tell him what i honestly feel about him. You see... i'm not very good with complimenting people or profess my profound admiration for them... I mean... it's in our culture anyway, to be stingy when it comes to complimenting people or telling people our true feelings... I pondered for very long. Typed and deleted, typed again and deleted. This went on for quite long until i decided to type and hit 'Enter'.

In the end, i still decided to tell him my honest opinion and my admiration for him. That's because i was thinking if i don't tell him now, i won't be able to die in peace. Next time when i'm on my death bed, i'll blame myself for not telling him my true feelings...

So it was mutual sharing time. We both encouraged each other and we both gained a listening ear + helping hand. And tonight, i'm going to sleep with a big smile plastered on my face because despite all odds, i've told my friend my true feelings. That's what matters.

To live with no regrets...