Sunday, December 23, 2007

Random-ness

My life is so boring... Work is boring... Admin work is boring... everything's boring BUT i don't miss school... Wahaha!

Went to BookFest yesterday. I didn't find the books that i want! shoosh! At least the things were neatly arranged and there's no problem trying to navigate your way through. Compared to IT fair, the bookfest is practically empty... Guess not many people are interested in reading...

We saw a newcaster promoting his book and my little cousin exclaimed excitedly "wah! got ming xing leh!" Oh gosh! His definition of a star is different from ours... That was super funny man...

I just got pricked by a staplet... i hope i won't die of metal poisioning...

watched National Treasure.. it was cool man!! I like thrilling intelligent clever suspense movie like this... woo hoo!!

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Seized by flu

I've got an invasion in my body. The flu virus has successfully entered my body system and is recruiting body cells to join in the combat against my immune system. i'm not letting the enemies win. So i prepped myself with flu pills after each meal to boost my antibodies. Provide them with more equipment to beat the flu virus to its grave...

Oh boy... It's just a flu and i can write a paragraph on it...

I think i'm somewhat racist... People from the same place where my ancestors came from always managed to step on my toes. (i'm beating about the bush because i want to avoid being sued by ministry for harmonious ties in singapore...) I'm quick to discern i'm a singaporean chinese and not some other chinese.

Yesterday was qijiemei outing. We wanted to take neo prints from a particular machine when we saw bags and coins strewn all over the place inside the machine and the eerie part was nobody was around. It's really eerie because for once i thought the people who were taking pictures were sucked into the machine like old wives' tale that camera could actually suck away someone's soul. Plus there were a handful of 1 dollar coins on the table which made me think that something bad really happened cause who in the right state of mind will leave the money that adds up to about twenty or thirty plus there without anyone guarding it... I panicked and ran out of the machine only to find 4 or was it 5 china girls happily squealing over the doodlings on their neo prints.The seven of us were staring and they blissfully ignored us. Ruiying asked them something which i couldn't hear and they just continued to remain unmoved and said that they were going to take neoprints for 2 more times. this meant that they were going to hog the neoprint machine for very long. Naturally, i flared up and said while you're doodling, we can take our pictures first what. They ignored us and continued with their squeals. It's bloody stupid ok! They can doodle while we take our pictures and by the time we had finished, they can take their pictures again... Can anyone see the wondrous plan i'd drawn up?

Finally, another group of people asked them whether they could remove their bags from the machine and they finally did so grudgingly... Like WTH? they don't own the machine.

In case you guys don't know but i just came back from China and ya... i'd met with situations like this before. Of course, there were nice people too but somehow too many black sheep had disillusioned by civic perception of them...

Ok! I shall be more objective. Of course there're obnoxious singaporeans too... like me... ever so sarcastic and cynical and many other 'qualities'.

Oh ya! If everyone is perfect, there won't be the need for law and police. Police and those working in law firms will lose their jobs and upset the whole economic balance creating a hoo-haa... i don't want that to happen. So, i shall remain obnoxious...

Did i mention a bunch of china young girls cut into my queue in HongKong saying that their friends had gotten them tickets for the tram. I'd got ticket in my hand and therefore so what? I raised my voice and said something like "i;ve ticket too" and they apologised and continued to cut queue, shoving their way through. I swear i could feel a lot of sincerity for their apologies man... It was cold and their sincere aplogies really helped warm my heart... I pity the little girl behind me. She was freezing and her ears were red but she didn't have friends to help them purchase tickets therefore she was not liable to cut queue. We were both in the same boat. Friendless... When the tram came, the bunch of china girls dashed all the way to be first in line. I didn't know the tram moves like a bullet train which explained the need to run in case it 'bullets' away... one of the china girls tried to speak english which was hilarious and i made no attempts to drown my laughter. I told you i know i'm obnoxious. The same pitiful china girl went on to flirt with a korean guy, speaking to him in english, with his girlfriend clinging tightly to his arm. Hey! i didn't say the china girl was bitchy did i?

Woo.. some to think of that, i only have a jaudiced impression of young snobbish china girls... where has all the racial harmony values inculcated since kindergarden gone to? Oh gosh! There's something really wrong with me...

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Opps! i;m back

I've survived one week of work. yeah! I'm working. My job starts at 8.30 and ends at 6.30pm. That's 10 hours of work. Erm...to be more accurate, 9 hours since 1 hour is dedicated to lunch. if you were to consider commuting, it's be another one hour so i spend about 11 hours out of the house. I'm like virtually non existent in the house since i gotta get 6/7 hours of sleep. which means i only spend about 6/7 hours at home, awake. haha! and since i wake up early in the morning while others are snoozing away, i don't get to see my family much. yups! it's like going to school. Except there's no tests, studies, crammings, burning midnight oil etc... I'm working at upper changi's Kinderland. Does it ring a bell? No.. i'm working in a childcare centre. First week of job, i didn't dare to step out of office since i'm new and stuff... starting from next week, i'm going to mingle with kids. Befriend and play with them? Haha!

basically, my job is just boring admin stuff... It's boring... very boring... so so boring... but i know i'm quite lucky to have a job like this. It's stress free and you know what... i get to enjoy a choir of cries every morning and it'll last till the kids are gone. If i'm lucky, the choir of cries would be reduced to a duet. On occasions whereby lady luck drops a penny in my path, it'll be a solo performance of cries. I've realised that kids these days have magnificent healthy lungs with great air capacity. They cry non stop for hours... is it because of GM food, vaccinations, organic food, antibiotics or something else? Can anyone shine some light on that?

OMG! i think being cooped up in the office for 10 hours per day has made me sarcastic? is this considered sarcastic? (inhales deeply)

which means i don't have much time to play with my darling computer. i hope i can take pictures of the office i worked in soon. Luckily, i've got a companion, elaine, to joke around with when our jobs get too boring...

Kudos to elaine for withstanding my nonsense...

Otherwise, i still like kids...

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Yellowcard - Only One

I like this song!! although the lead reminds me of draco malfoy... i don't know why... just remind me of draco malfoy for no apparent reason. I don't see the link... maybe cos of his hair?

Funny Cousin

My cousin is so damn funny... although he's irritating but kids will still be kids anyway. They are such guileless adorable irritants... i know that's some irony in that description. It's like saying 'a cool geek' but who knows.. the geek may be a geek trapped in a handsome body...Ok! i'm going out of point....

i was doing chem paper 2 when my cousin decided to pop into my room. Being the ever kaypoh-est lil brother, he stood beside me and stared at my paper. Btw, i was doing a question on periodic table which requires you to write a lot of gibberish things in order to explain the trends across the periodic table. I was writing blah blah blah... and he had this awed yet mixed with shock kind of expression.

cousin: you mean i have to write and do all this when i'm in sec 4
me: JC. jiejie not in sec sch anymore...
cousin: you mean i have to write this in JC? (horrified)
me: ya... Gp's worse. you have to write 3/4/5 pages of essay. Cannot leave space.
cousin: (horrified expression)

So, i expect he won't dare to imagine how life will be like after he leaves primary school. I know it's bad to say such things to traumatise little kids but then ...you can't expect me to say something like jc is so fun! you get to climb that awesome monkey bar during recess, toss frisbee during break, drink coca cola mixed with f&n orange with ice cream soda with grape juice...( I heard that kids are drinking this sorts of nonsense) that will be telling a lie! it's better to tell the truth yea?

anyway, that funny cousin say my uncle lying on the bed watching tv and popped the most incredulous thing...
cousin: you have a lot of armpit hair... want me to pluck for you?

i laughed until i could hardly breathe... so funny! he looked so innocent when he said that...

Back to reality! i'm sudenly very afraid for my cousin. I'm scared he'll become a sissy in future. I think he mixes too much with the girls. The men are always working and hardly at home. We have proportionately more girls than guys... that explains the volunteer-to-shave-armpit-hair incident cause girls have the aversion to armpit hair... hehe!

anyway, i think i screwed up my maths and chem paper 3. Imagine having bio paper 2 and maths paper 2 on the same day. It was akin to murder! hai~

i'm depressed... ...

Monday, October 22, 2007

"Peccadillo"

Can you guess the meaning? Don't refer to the dictionary? what does it sound like or look like to you?

It was my first seeing that word, it looked and sounded like some spanish food to me...

doesn't it?

Huichan doesn't agree... she said i'm always thinking of food...

But, it really sounds like food mah... not meh?

Anyway, you know what is it like to wake up at 3 am with hiccups...

wide awake because you are hiccuping nonstop. anyway, i had the 'honour' of experiencing that one fateful morning ...Took a long time for the hiccup to cease and for me to drift back to la la land...

it's not funny k! i had to scramble all the way to the kitchen to get a cup of water...

I'm a cynical person...

that was kinda random i know...

Saturday, October 20, 2007

new blogskin!!

what's that?
dustball?
stones?
granites?
nope!
it's weirdly shaped with chocolate puccas!
My study companion! Pucca rocks and keeps me happy and awake!!



taken from the national library






A shu nu pic of me and my darling sarah!








I have a new blogskin!! Hurray!!










The previous one was crap... it was meant to be a temporary one... anyway, my blogskin has always been a temporary one until i chance upon a better looking one and voila! plus bye bye to the previous... Anyway, the previous one was crap because it gave people the idea that i'm in love or something which obviously i'm not!!










Linkin park is coming, together with black eyed peas and the click five and david copperfield. AND YOU KNOW WHAT.. they all come before or during a levels. SHOOT! I can envision them deliberately planning their concerts during a levels so that people like me me me can't go.





Linkin park: let's go singapore and perform during a levels so that a levels students can't watch us... leave them "NUMB" with anger. leave them to "Bleed it out"...





Black eyed peas: (sniggers) yea yea! yo man! we shall head for singapore and "let's get retarded".





Fergie: i hope those students won't cry and mourn over their loss for not being able to cry. Boys are weaklings for sure but i know "BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY".





The clive 5: we will be performing at MOS. We hope that there will be pretty babes.. singapore has what... SPGS? maybe one of them will be "JUST THE GIRL" i'm looking for...










OK! i'm bored... i imagined that up... obvious ... hahaha! why can't they perform next year? like when a levels is history, i have a job which means i have the money to pay for the tickets to watch. Doesn't it make more monetary sense? AH!!!










Now, i'm stuck at home ploughing through notes and books... yuck! it's so say very fruitful also judging from the fact that i'm blogging and not studying... *smack myself*










i wanna watch them perform!! ah!! especially click five! The handsome cute bunch of dudes... ahAhAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!










i should have just called in to 98.7 fm hotline and sing one of the click five's songs and win myself 5 tickets. That's easy as it sounds... i should have done that...











Sunday, October 07, 2007

new bf

I've added another picture of boyfriend 2 beside boyfriend 1... wahaha!! More reasons for me to glue my butt to the study desk and mug for a levels... more pictures of handsome guys, increase in the potency, more glued will i be to the chair... sentence sounds abit weird but heck...

hey hey! i'm going to tell you about this funny incident which happened one week ago at Toa Payoh. Hazel was standing at the roadside waiting for uncle to fetch her to some ulu place to celebrate her another uncle's birthday. There was another lady standing ahead of her, flagging desperately for a taxi. Hazel stood near the road hoping that her uncle would notice her since it was dark and her uncle has lao hua yan... That lady somehow inched closer to her. Hazel suspected that lady thought she was competing with her for a taxi. Hazel moved away from her, the lady got closer. Hazel was damn irritated. Hazel moved inwards, away from the edge of the kerb. The lady stood in front of her, flagged a taxi, taxi stopped and she walked away leaving the taxi driver totally clueless. The taxi driver stared at Hazel, Hazel Stared back. The driver's stare slowly turned to glare... Hazel looked away feeling dumbfounded... what's wrong with the lady?

In conclusion, i'm not the only weird person on earth...

Thursday, October 04, 2007

The Hot guys!!




Hot guys!! lalalala!! hahaha!! The click 5 rocks!! ass-kicking good song... whee!

funny song




this song is funny. Teenagers rock!! yippee!!

nice song




Nice song!! but i think the video is abit erm.. lame? haha!! i think the female lead has scary eyes.... eee...

Monday, October 01, 2007

cool bands




i like this song! i secretly think shayne is the long lost brother of JT. since both of them can reach high notes equally well. both quite hot. Even the way they sing, more or less the same... (i think the model in the mtv is taller than him... wahaha!)

cool bands




this video damn cute!! ah!!

cool bands




this video damn cute!! ah!!

cool bands




i'm currently in love with this song... i prefer the original version without timbaland. somehow, i think thr version whereby timbaland feats one republic does not sound as nice...

Sunday, September 30, 2007

why so crude?

i was having dinner at downtown east when this family of i assume fillipinoes sat at the table beside us... The father was shouting at his son and slapped him across the face. Ouch! The mother was clutching another sobbing child. The father looked damn pissed off. Mum looked equally bad as well... both of them started screaming at their children.

i know it's none of my business but somehow the way the father disciplines his child was not the type that i would agree on. Slapping the child on the face. And it's not some light slapping... i heard a loud piack! ok... damn scary la...

Even a child has self esteem. Imagining being slapped in public. Does anyone care how he feels? obviously the parents don't. I know kids can be naughty but they are born to be so right? like who was a saint when they were young? certainly not me... Even if parents want to mete out physical punishments, i think they should do it in a private vicinity called 'HOME'. in public, stern warning or a glare will do... if the child is really too naughty then slap on the legs/buttocks la... why slap the face?

That family had a pram which obviously blocked the cleaners' way cause they were pushing a trolley. The parents just sat that and watch when an old man was having a difficulty pushing his way through the tables, past the trolley that was obviously taking up space. There was plenty of space available elsewhere... why did they have to smack it right in everyone's path? cow's brain... The father just sat and stared. I imagined he was gloating at the old man having a hard time pushing his way through. Rat's brain...

One poor boy walked past and accidentally hit a plastic bag which was on the pram onto the floor... he didn't know he had accidentally knocked something off but his sister behind him saw it and picked up the plastic bag and placed it back into the pram. you know what the father said? "F*** THAT BOY!!" damn loudly... i was happily devouring my fish and chips and i my instant reaction was to drop my fork and stared at him. "That's the idiot boy" he said to his wife and pointed to the boy... i stared at him and he had the cheek to stare back. since my family clearly outnumbered them. I knew we were gonna be on the winning side even when a fight breaks out. SO, lao niang stared back!

it's not as though the plastic bag was filled with glassware or something. It was some plastic wrapper from Popular... why use such a crude language and on front of the kids somemore.

I wonder how the children will grow up to be like with their dad spewing profanities in front of them like an automatic tennis ball dispenser... i bet by the age of 12, all of them will be masters of profanities. hai~ can't stand the cocky attitude of the dad. My heart goes out to the child.

bought donuts from donut factory yesterday. i was sitting down on the mrt when two kids playing lost their balance and toppled onto the left hand corner of the box of donuts! they dented the box. Fortunately, the part which was dented was empty. The donuts were already in my and huichan's tummies... heng... the rest of my donuts were unharmed. If not i go report police already. The mum apologised and did i say that i didn't even make a sound nor raise an eyebrow? I was shocked la... but then just sigh and accept the fact that my donuts are squashed and forgive. Kids ma... they are meant to be stupid, playful and naughty... at least they weren't drooling anymore...

my heart skipped a beat when they landed on my box k... no kidding... precious donuts! wahaha!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

im back

I'm back!!

I've survived prelims...

prelims was... sucky... some papers were going the extra mile to kill us.. like chem. I did not have enough time to do chem mcqs. It was somewhat like tikam tikam. I had to play the guess-and-shade game... wth! i've to brace myself when results come...

if prelims were to continue for 2 more weeks, i bet my life will be shortened by 5 years...

hai...

oh ya! i had a damn scary experience last wednesday...

i was taking bus 9 home when this guy who looked very dazed board the bus and sat beside me. i caught a whiff of glue... not the one we use as a substitute to our saliva so that we can paste a photo of our bf in the sketch book but the one used for industrial purposes. The type which has a strong smell that supposedly make you 'high'.

anyway, that guy kept ducking his head into his shirt which was weird. like who will do that... so i couldn't help noticing him. His expression was weird. It's as though his body is there but his soul is in another dimension. the strong smell of glue was unbearable and made me nauseated. i suspected he was sniffing glue underneath his shirt...

my suspicion was confirmed when that guy was alighting the bus. I saw him clutching this bag of yellow vicous liquid... damn gross k... imagine he sat beside me for 15 minutes. My heart nearly stopped beating. Can anyone imagine? he might slap me to death, punch me in my stomach till i vomit out my guts, or simply force the vile damn glue into my nostrils and i can't breathe thus die... my life was in danger. Yet, i didn't dare move away in case he suspect i want to report to the bus driver and grab hold of my wrists and fling me onto the chair and sit on me... ah!!!!!!! i was so scared...

why do i have to meet such things? Like the other time, i saw a snatch thief emptying his loot at the overhead bridge ...

that tells me i need to buy more insurances. In case...

i saw four guys with long hair. below shoulder length... yuck! i don't like guys with long hair. One of them was paul twohill... eee...whatever...

Monday, August 27, 2007

I made a valiant attempt to pack my super untidy table. I think my table is capable of shocking visitors to the range of mild to serious heart attack. Well, depends on how strong is the heart...
I know it looks like rubbish dump...
That's why my mum used to (still actually) doubt that i'm a daughter... she thinks it's her fault for not producing me as a SON...
I'm so not a girl...
ehh...who said girl must always be neat, pink, fluffy, tidy and free of even a teenie weenie speck of dust? That's stereotyping ppl... and stereotyping ppl is supposedly bad... *shakes my head fervently*
I spent 5 gruelling hours trying to clear my table, pack my stuff, wipe my table till there's no bacteria nor dust. I used dettol detergent to clean k... kills 99 % of bacteria... Now my table is bacteria free... Ok la...maybe that 1 % which remains to share my table. Not that i mind... got company what...



TADAH!!!!!!!

Look what i did to the syf flowers. I twist them round my table lamp... brings back memories...



Isn't the turtle cute? Looking so happy under the table lamp of flowers... wahaha!




I felt that my table was too bare and decided to put my bf's pic... He's gorgeous man!! Wang lee hom rocks!






somehow, i placed my bf's pic at a strategic spot so that he can stare at me to study... motivate me or sth... I'm thinking of collecting more photos of gorgeous guys and paste on my table so that at least i'll be attracted by them to sit at my table and study...
anybody has pics of hunks, please donate to me if you don't want. I doubt any will do so cause you girls will save them for your own. I'm just trying my luck...
I'm panicking... how how how?? how am i supposed to finish studying all the topics required for chem, bio, maths and econs.... AH!!!!!!!!!!!!







Friday, August 24, 2007

last day of school

Today marks the 'last' day of school for all j2s. We'll reappear after prelims somehow for more lessons no matter how unhappy we are... we got into a photo taking frenzy today.

We celebrated teachers' day during GP. Our plan was this: Adillia complains that she has stomach cramps and need to go sickbay with zheya accompanying her. Then she'll sneaked out of school to buy cake for mrs ho and run back.

Our plan nearly didn't manage to take place because mrs ho came into the class and announced "i'm not feeling well today. I think i'm going to throw up. I really can't teach you all. I'm feeling shivery all over. I'm going to pass you the entry proofs and i'll leave." the rest of us were dumbfounded. Quick thinking adillia and zheya decided to leave at the moment. Our plan was pushed forward. Time passed at snail's pace when they were gone. We started bombarding her with questions to make her stay. It was hilarious seeing the whole class suddenly so enthu in asking questions non stop and was united in our attempts to make mrs ho stay. quite sadistic come to think of it. we were like stopping a very sick person from going back to rest... opps! anyway it was worth it because mrs ho was touched. Even though she was ill, she was a good sport and still went around cheerily to take pictures.

After that, we went under lt1 to take class pics. We attracted alot of attention... we did this pic whereby everyone jumped at the same time. Cool right... too bad i don't have the pics with me now... a guy in my class looked like an idiot jumping so many times ALONE cause there were problems trying to take proper pics of him. He jumped too high out of camera's range i think... it was both embarrassing and fun! :)
No more pe ever after. I'll miss sports complex
Nice view!


'The Cosey 4' named by Grace. Stupid Junhan dangled his donut on top of me!!
He dangled his donut during econs lesson and threw ms wong into a laughing fits. The reason is simply, he looked stupid trying to dangle the little cute donut...

The cookies that i baked for the entire class. This is the sad looking one which i ate!





The smiley one!



SMile like the cookie!
The stressful period is going to begin... i'm starting to feel that my life is so bleak... Give me a cliff and i'll gladly jump down...











Tuesday, August 21, 2007

My ulcers are so fertile...

I now have three ulcers! From one to two and then THREE!! Am i supposed to rejoice at the fertility of my ulcers or not? AH!!!!

I can't eat properly since it's damn painful and i'm experiencing some sort of loss of appetite... yucks!!

I don't know why my econs teacher scheduled the econs test tomorrow afternoon which is meant for yr 2 cgs to go outing with their CT, celebrating teachers' day in advance. I know it's bad of me to think this way but still i secretly harbour this thought that she purposely scheduled it to be tomorrow cause nobody wants to celebrate staff day for her... :P

I met Vanessa at Zap and she proudly showed me her phylogenetic tree? i have no idea what's that. I think i saw a tree with a chimp and other animals on it. Come to think of it now, the chimp doesn't really resemble a chimp... oh well...

AH!! I'm supposed to study 'ROLE OF GOVERNMENT'.

I'm not an econs-phile... econs is notmy cup of tea...

Monday, August 20, 2007

Ulcers + time flies

I woke up with one ulcer on my tongue. By the time evening arrives, my ulcer had already decided to propagate itself preventing the loss of its species by reproducing another ulcer assexually. So, i'm stuck with two ulcers to keep me company lest i get bored, i can talk to my 'beloved' ulcers. Ok... that reflects how stressed out i am...

As cliche as it may sound, time really flies. I can't believe i'm already 18!! Soon, i won't be a teenager anymore. Next year onwards, i won't get to enjoy youth day holiday. I can hardly believe jcts had been over for nearly two months plus... To me, syf had happened very long ago. Guitar concert... oh well... time flies flies flies!!

It's saddening to see all my classmates getting all cranked up due to the stress. Prelims is coming as a matter of fact. That's nothing we can do to deny it... People falling sick, looking real tense, zonked out (like me), living in his/her own world, less crapping, less laughter... All because of stress. I guess i'm also getting pretty absorbed in my own world and i have no idea what's going on around me besides stress, homework, prelims, exhaustion, sleep and more stress... I'm living like a zombie and i feel sad thinking about it...

I think i should do something about it... i don't want to live a life of a zombie's. Even in the face of stress, i hope to make prospect a happier one... Cheer up and keep fighting!!

demure and RESOLUTE!!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Mighty scary

I think it's mighty scary to have nose bleed...

I'm so so so sick of school... The mundane life in school as well as outside school, well just make this way...my life is so monotonous... It's like a vicious cycle kind of thing...

Not to mention, the stress is piling up now... my mind is bogged down by so much stuff. I can't have even one minute of peace in my mind. even when i'm sleeping, i bet my soul will still drift off to school related stuff.

I'm sick of whining how boring and stressful my life is... i'm sick of everything. I'm sick of being sick...

well... as the end of whining, no matter how sick you were or still are, somehow it just feels better...

yay! whine more!

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

National Day

i am a good girl. i went to school for national day celebrations and caught haziz supposedly singing what sounded like poetry recital to me. We got very high when he sang 'chan mali chan'. I sang very loudly with him cause the song actually represents one my friends and that is huichan. Chan mali is her nickname...I screamed real loud when guitar juniors were performing and after that pretended it wasn't me. faked innocence... wahaha! the rest of the time was constructively spent asking chan mali to send me games to my hp via bluetooth and playing games on my hp. I don't understand what the skit was about. I can't be bothered as well. Now i have more fun games in my hp. Boredom won't be able to kill me! I'm such a sucker for games...

I want PSP. Gameboy also not bad. Can play pokemon... ah!!! miss my childhood... My playstation is collecting dust ... no time to play metal slug, pac man, skate, racing car etc...

i wore a red shirt today!! my first time wearing red shirt this year... red is not my colour. Anyway, happy national day! yippee!!


Tuesday, August 07, 2007

sit-ups: 34
shuttle run: 11.35s
sit and reach: 56 cm
standing board jump: 188 cm.

AND, i can't get gold because i miss C by 1 idiotic pull up... the teacher in charge was damn strict... i did so many in vain cause it wasn't counted... WTF!!

I nearly burst out in tears after that cause i just miss GOLD by 1 pull up... 1 pathetic pull up... life is so bloody unfair...

i told every single person about my damn plight...

life just sucks...

Guess what, i left my file in the gym and poor joel had to lug my file home...

It's all inclined pull ups' fault...

thinking of it now, life is always unfair... no matter how much effort you put in sometimes won't get recognised. That's when self affirmation comes in. Who cares about the damn certificate? it's not as though years later i can take out my napfa certs and show off or something... it'll just be a mouldy decomposing piece of shit by that time... why be so upset about it? I feel so silly for being so upset...

Hazel is the best!

For the effort i had put in, i think i should get platinum for napfa!

I'm happy once again... napfa is nothing...

I'm sorry to those who had to endure my endless complaints and use of crude language... thanks to those who tried to cheer me up as well

i wanted to pon school but i can't cause the stupid owner of my stupid file left it in the gym and the stupid owner has to claim it back from joel. Can't help laughing... yes... i'm this blur...

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Allow me to indulge in some self pity...

I'm such a poor thing...

I'm having gastric pain since this morning... AH!!!!

Friends are telling me that i'm stressing myself too much. Must learn to take things in my stride... i'm stressed la but not overly so...

My class was so 'fortunate' to be selected for MOE's survey. Question like 'do you like your school?' or 'do you like going to school' or 'do you find lessons interesting' or something along that line... my answer is ...
DISAGREE!

during PE, mrs goh said that studying is nothing. It's about overcoming the stress.

I hope i won't turn into a zombie... I'm trying to abstain from caffeinated drinks because reader's digest said that children should stay away from caffeine. It's not good for their health blah blah blah... i qualify for that because i'm still a child. which means i should abstain from caffeine...

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can u imagine the horror of steering clear of caffeine...

Monday, July 30, 2007

i want harry potter

I want Harry potter harry potter harry potter harry potter!!

Trying my best to persuade my mum to get me one but was repeatedly ignored... haha!!

i'm stressed...

i dread going to school everyday...

i'm beginnning to develop distaste for some of my tutors...

one tutor just assume we know what the heck is complex number all about and can do every single damn question in the tutorial. which i don't. I apologise for not being a maths type of person. Maths has never been my best subject since nursery. he refuses to go through some of the questions in the tutorial then... nobody dares to voice out their opinions in case he goes cranky and shout at us... I suspect 'mood swing' is one of the modules teachers have to learn in NIE.

another is breathing down my neck asking me to buck up for chem. tell me to ask more questions and such... don't always nod my head. said something like 'you always nod your head but end up your results not very good.' A big thank you for reminding me the fact that my chem sucks. Maybe i'm not a chem type of person...

so here comes the self-affirmation. Hazel, you can do it!! just got to put in more effort and focus!! jiayou!! 3 cheers for hazel!!

looking at the bright side, i have to thank to my tutors for their continuous 'encouragement' and 'constructive' comments... i'm all fired up to do my best...

oh ya!! i learnt this in GP. Inverted commas are used when the word is not used in a conventional way. sometimes, it means otherwise...

I'm so 'looking forward' to teachers' day!

Friday, July 27, 2007

squashed agar agar

Today is not a fine day...

first i woke up and my body felt like squashed agar agar. I couldn't even find the strength to lift myself off the bed... It's been like this since yesterday. yesterday was worse as i had dizzy spells. So, i'd decided to forgo school and stay at home...

yesterday's PE was scary! we had trail 2.4km run. i ran slower than usual. i suspected something was wrong with my body but still pushed myself on thinking it was just lack of sleep. It was until my 4th run then i started seeing stars... My vision darkened almost like what's shown on TV before someone faints. The surroundings became darker and i felt like i was on a sampan boat rocking on the sea... It was scary... damn scary... so i stopped running and dear mingyan came to my rescue. I was escorted back to the sports complex... phew!

During GP, my hands were trembling so badly that i couldn't even write my name properly let alone GP essay. I went to the sickbay even though i detest going to the sick bay because i think that place always has a funny smell... the bed sheets smelled funny too... eeyeew.. shall not dwell on it... but despite the odour, i fell asleep. But i woke up every 10 minutes... staring at the ceiling, loud voices of people, shuffling steps etc. while sleeping at the sick bay, i dreamt that i was chased by a cartoon dinosaur. It wasn't a real dino. Somewhat like barney the dino. Except it had longer fangs and it was yellow with red dots i think... i was in a frenzy trying to escape from the cartoonish dinosaur by trying to outrun it... what a horrible yet stupid nightmare...

i'm having horrible muscle aches all over... my mum said if i'm running a temperature, it'll be bad news cause it might be dengue. At that sombre moment when she told me, my aunt said 'we'll have to hurry up clear our house and check there's no stagnant water if not we'll be fined...' my mum and i thought she wanted to say something like 'we'll have to send her to the hospital immediately' instead she was more worried about being fined... That's what a family is for.... but still i find it funny... haha!

I don't think it's dengue.. hope not... i think it's just some lack of iron syndrome.

Friday, July 20, 2007

i'm a blood donor

I watched Harry potter last saturday. hmm... harry is getting hotter. The only disadvantage is his lack of height la... quite short. Haha! I think the show is pale in comparison to previous episodes... Too much details are left out of the movie... No quidditch this time round.. (sad) Plot is abit too dark and diffcult to understand for young children...

while everyone was off to NTU and SMU talks, we chose to boycott them and head for the library...

Four of them looked intently at their notes... (they didn't know that i took a picture of them)

I went for blood donation today!! Grace was there as well but she was not eligible to donate so i was left alone... i went ahead with it of course...

how it goes...

filled up a form with questions that are ahem! very personal like 'have you had sex before?', 'have you had sex with a homosexual before' blah...

proceeded to the doctor for medical screening and she asked the same old questions for double confirmation i guess.

The was off to test the density of my blood i guess. A staple sort of thing was used to prick my middle finger and blood splurt out ok... erm maybe not that exaggerated la but quite a lot of blood k... the nurse used a straw like thing to collect the blood via capillary action. The straw like thing looks like the straw used to drink yakult. She used that straw like thing to prod at my wound and squeeze my finger so that more blood gushed out...painful k... One drop of my precious blood was placed in a blue solution. Mine sank in the blue solution which means i was alright for blood donation...

waited for few minutes for my turn to donate blood. in the meantime, i was looking at the expressions of people. Some guys looked away and cringed when the needle was inserted into their arms... hehe! some looked wide-eyed with shock. Some obviously looked nervous... of course nervous la! i was nervous too ok.i'm human.

the nurse had a hard time locating my vein. Had to squeeze the stress ball real hard... next was followed by sterilisation blah blah and the humongous fat needle was inserted into my vein and immediately my precious blood gushed up to fill up the bag...

took me less than 5 minutes to fill up the bag. i had to continuously do the squeeze ball actions as the bag was being filled up.

witnessed a girl who fainted or somewhat on the verge of fainting and had to be escorted to i-have -no-idea-where by the paramedics...

in another words, donating blood is such a brave act man! I'm not trying to say i'm brave la... but u see...i went there alone. Grace left since she couldn't donate her blood and there was no one to accompany me... not brave... hahaha!

that was so byl... read between the lines, infer, think, think some more and you'll get what i'm trying to imply...

i wanted a blue bandage with smileys on it was got this instead...

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Pink one with purple hearts

The nurse asked me whether pink was ok. Obviously i had to say it's ok although i hate pink and have allergy to pink frilly stuff... But it's ok...

had free milo after that to replenish energy. Of couse i felt abit weak in my legs. (i'm feeling weak now still...no energy like that)








Me and my pink bandage




yay! i'm so proud of myself!





Cool!!
I donated blood for the sake of experiencing it la... anyway, donating blood is supposedly a good thing... help save lives especially since dengue is so rampant nowadays...
to digress, durai (ya ya the one involved in NKF saga) got dengue! it was reported in a small section of straits times but still i saw it!! and burst out laughing... a case of retribution? omg! i can't believe i'm so morbid... where's your compassion hazel?
i strutted around the house in an attempt to attract people's attention to my bandage. Despite the bright pink colour, nobody asked except for my aunty and i lied to her that i engaged with a battle with someone and sprained my elbow. Of course, she didn't buy that because i'm a good and well-behaved person.
i deliberately walked in front of my grandma a few times and she didn't notice my bandage... i had to resort to flinging my arm in front of her several times before she noticed and called me a 'hiao za bo'. she thought the bandage was some bangle that i wore it around my elbow... all because of its bright pink colour!!
i had to point and fling my arm under the nose of my cousin before she noticed. she scolded me 'siao!' why the lack of concern ah?
the main reason why i want people to notice the bandage is because i want to describe every single details like needle pricking into my flesh, blood gushing out to them so that they'll get grossed out...
just a simple wish of mine... anyway, i managed to get them grossed out still by the explicit details...
donating blood was ok la... slight pain when the needle was poking through my flesh but otherwise it was considered painless. the effects would be lack of energy and feeling abit weak. No strenuous exercise, can't even carry my bag after donating blood cause the nurse stopped me from carrying my barang barang...
The bad part is this....







sounds like some organic compound









Iron tablets!!
i have to take one iron tablet before meal everyday for two weeks... eee... i destest eating medicine... *sobs*








Friday, July 13, 2007

U know...

You know i used to have a nickname...

Nur Hazel Bte Hamidah Muay Mao!

so long! fortunately, nobody calls me that now... if not i'll cringe and die...

Huixian touched my head today while i was engrossed with doing revision worksheet on organic chem in the canteen. OMG! i was shocked by her sudden action and i couldn't believe she had done that... i'm still stumped. was that huixian or did i imagine everything? she went 'eeww...' after touching my head... shortly after she'd left, janice walked past and messed up my hair... why the sudden interest in my hair? hahaha! so funny!

To janice and huixian: i haven't washed my hair for a week... sorry for not telling you earlier about that... be sure to sterilise your hands.

(The above statement is so so so NOT untrue... :P)

I rock!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

self affirmation

Hazel is bright, hardworking, determined, sensible, driven, self-motivated, conscientious student.

Hazel, do something with regards to your chem!!!

My chem sucks. So i must seriously sit down and think through it. I want to get good results, enter university and have more choices... I need to mug!! HAZEL LIM!!! DO SOME SERIOUS MUGGING!! shit ... That's why i need self affirmations to keep me going...

I know my chem teacher is picking on me... he's noticing every nuance of my expression/ movement... The moment i let my guard down and drift off to lala land, bingo! he'll get the chance to embarrass me...(but i'm not easily embarrassed la since i admit i have thick skin) Do something to my chem, make miracles happen and let my chem teacher be awed by my fabulous grade. A** here i come!

During chem, we heard the fire drill and shot out of class thinking it was the real hoo-ha... in the end we were told that there was some problem with the fire alarm and there wasn't any fire drill intended. Dampened my hope to miss some time off lessons... at the same time, i felt quite foolish walking down four storeys and up again because of the cuckoo fire drill... stupid fire alarm...

PE was a torture today! first the weather was hot. i felt like a fat ass since i hadn't been exercising for long. Was hungry and dehydrated. Did alot of sadistic exercises that left my muscles shouting in protest. Plus i got a strict and supposedly sadistic teacher who goes all the way out to torture us... PE sucks. My tummy is aching because of too much sit ups/leg raise and crunches... WOO MAN!!! Napfa is approaching ... save me!

Sunday, July 08, 2007

weekend end liao ah?

Why does weekend always passes so damn fast?!

I'm having monday blues...

Dread going to school. I don't want to get GP and econs papers back... i bet my results will be horrible enough to scare barney the dinosaur till he turns white...

School is so yuck!

i sound like a brat...

Friday, July 06, 2007

dun wanna live

Had class photo taking today! oh man! it was so embarrassing... shall not talk about it!! argh!!

today's an unhappy day. My chem result, like what i expected, sucks... i did a very qian bian thing. i smsed my mum..

sms (hazel to mum): i failed my chem! yay! sian...
sms back( mum to hazel): u wanna eat kway tiao liao...

Fail chem still can yay somemore... ai ya! i think i deserve to fail cause i didn't study hard enough. Instead of moping and swallowing myself in self-pity. Must as well face it, acknowledge that it's my own fault and live on... strive to do better and stuff... yay! I shall gladly accept the kway tiao from my mummy...

Mac's hotcakes!! This pic was taken before i decided to boycott macs ...
My pets!! CRABS!!
come to think of it... isn't it cool to have crabs as pets? they don't make noise, just blow bubbles and can pinch people that you don't like real hard... woo!! Oh ya!! crabs do not shed fur. Not happy, still can cook and eat somemore... Cool right? Chilli crabs... Woo!!

Home made rojak! wah!

Anyway, i think i'm going to fail GP. Confirm fail one... my teacher was telling me that most of the people who did the same question as me failed. die la! WTH! i don't want to get back econs and GP next week...




Thursday, July 05, 2007

HENG PONG KUI!!! I promise i'll kill you when i see you around in school... EUGENE CHONG YAO CHUNG as well!!! KILL YOU BOTH!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm such a poor soul... how on earth am i supposed to get out of this mess? Will announcing to the whole world that i have a lover already plus i'm les helps? *bangs my head against the wall*

i'm so disappointed in my bio result... i studied ok... maybe not very hard lah... so sad... I hope there'll be moderation to save me.

i don't want to get back chem papers tomorrow. I'll bring an oxygen tank in case i hyperventilate when i see my paper... chem was so damn difficult.

going to school is such a chore...

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

shitty life begins

Life is unfortunately going back to the shitty way it was previously. My shitty life is going to start from tomorrow onwards... No more half days and holidays... Tutorials and lectures... homework and tests... eeeyeew!! so disgusting... not to mention the horrible test results i'm going to get. I've booked an appointment with the shrink in case i can't take it and sink into depression or something...

i think my cousin isn't cute anymore... haha! she's all grown up and i don't think i'm accepting very well the fact that she's grown up!! Not the little innocent naive sweet girl she used to be. Her sense of dressing has changed, the way she thinks and carries herself, the way she demands for more freedom, the way whereby all good intentions from people around her sometimes fall on deaf ears. My little sis has evolved to become an angsty teenager and dear cousin me is finding quite hard to come to terms with it... it's scary to imagine that people do change. I'm missing the old her although i'm not too sure whether the new her is better or something? Maybe i feel weird that my little cousin is no longer clinging onto my leg and stuff. She's growing up and knows how to take charge of her life now... who knows one fine day she'll give us a heart attack by having a boyfriend. (when the time comes, i'll hunt that guy down!) ahem!

i took back one quarter of bio paper today. I'm going to say it's not optimistic. I bet with one strand of my precious hair, i won't pass. Come to think of it, i think i'll fail all my jcts. Life sucks right? when i actually studied, to fail... wahaha!!

I want to go arcade and play basketball...

Monday, July 02, 2007

busy

so busy lately...

whee!!

let me sum up the events of these past few days

fri: stayed at home and stoned

sat: met sha, huixian and audrey for lunch at TM! i miss sha...
at night, nearly all prime ones went to some ulu part of marina bay for dinner. EUGENIE CHONG AND AH PONG BULLIED ME!!! to ah pong: i told u... U look older than 18 la!! It was my second time trying out pool. The first time i played was with my cousins. Brought back bad memories cause i kept aiming wrongly and hitting nothing which brought tears to their eyes. But i think i did better this time... at least nobody laughed...maybe they did la but at least they didn't cry...

sunday: went out with my lover... she treated me to gelare's leh! the waffles damn ass kicking good la... ice cream not bad as well. Had fun gossiping with her. both of us were like two siao za bos...kept laughing at crazy jokes we'd made... whee!! lover rocks!! Anyway, we saw a couple holding hands at PS. There's nothing wrong with that right? except that the couple...both guys leh!! *gasp!!* obviously got something wrong right... i didn't know singapore's society is so open minded now... i think i'm living in a well. is it just me or what? The world is evolving and i don't know about it... I thought people like them will do that discreetly in the private vicinity of them home or some gay clubs or something... i know i sound like an old hag la... it's not as though i disapprove of gays/ lesbians and stuff... it's just plain weird and hair rising to see two adult guys holding hands and looking so lovey dovey. I swear all my hair was saluting to them... You know what lover and me do? we held our hands and tried to race up to them. so show off!! wahaha!

Monday: went swimming this morning! as a result, ive become darker! eee... i have obvious tan lines which i showed to everybody. i'm proud of it.. wahaha!! after lunch at century square, went to siglap CC for badminton! whee!! badminton rocks!! qihui, audrey, zhuang shu and pong were there. ivan came and played for about 10 mins before we left... Ah Pong, the pampered rich kid took a taxi home because he had a blister on his foot and he felt uncomfortable with all the water whooshing inside the bubble blister... ... pampered weird kid!! Take that AH PONG!!

I'm enjoying myself as much as i can before school officially starts and the results start jostling their way through to me... that will spell the end of me... i'm sure my mummy will wallop me and tie me to the gate...

Friday, June 29, 2007

i'm back from the world's end... it's like johnny depp in POC. execpt his was filled with weird looking white coloured shell crabs while mine was filled with study notes... it was very nightmarish!! Life turns black when there's tests... i bet my life will be shortened by 5 years if jcts were to extend up to one month.i guess my wish is going to come true cause that's what going to happen for a levels... yee... i see black and red spots just trying to picture how life would be when a levels say hi! to us... eee....

My grandma's so funny and irritating at the same time. I'm so unfillial... but she's really irritating in a funny way... so actually, i don't feel that irritated la...more of bemused... she's paranoid about mosquitoes... she gets frantic when she sees one puddle of water here and there. she's goes into a frenzy when a mosquito flies into our house uninvited. It sets her crazy when she's bitten by a mozzie.

i woke up early on yesterday's morning and saw her cause she's up early usually
Ah ma: did u know that mosquito can kill... just one bite u can die!
Me: ya.. dengue ah?
Ah ma: ya!! the lao zao bos at my workplace told me... they read the news... those kena are in sixty plus yrs old... old ppl always kena this and that...
Me: immune system low ma... u mus becareful...
ah ma:u also...

then my mum came down from her room for work
ah ma: ehh...mosquitoe can kill... one sixty plus person died... mosquito bite...
(she repeats the story again)

it was aunty's turn to come out of the room
Ah ma: ehh... news said got one person died of mosquitoe's bite....
(story repeated for the third time)

my grandma is very very very worried about mosquitoes... she frets over them too much...

Can anyone give me tips on how to wipe out mosquitoes or maybe at least prevent mozzies from intruding our house cause my grandma is getting on everyone's nerves...

how i wish i can stay home every morning and witness funny conversations like these...


Thursday, June 21, 2007

i think macdonald's sucks

i think macdonald's sucks.... the one at changi airport terminal sucks cause it's not study friendly... the manager or who so ever chased us out while we were trying to study there. it's not as though we never buy food to eat what... plus i saw quite a few empty seats... plus plus the who so ever's tone of voice just wasn't right... can use better tone not?

don't mac know that they are actually honoured that so many students pick that place to study...they are actually contributing to the society by providing food to nourish the brains of the young and a revenue where they can feel at ease to mug their lives out... who knows...maybe a top notch politician/doctor/lawyer will be produced through all that hard work put in while slogging their asses off at macs... and who knows maybe that top notch person will give a speech in future and attribute his success to all the mugging sessions at macs. That would definitely bring glory to macs...

i'm flirting with the idea of being an entrepreneur in future. I'll either open a cafe that sells desserts or a candy shop. for the cafe, i'll have one area specially catered for students to mug. students will have to come at first come first serve basis to 'book' the limited seats... the rest of the cafe will be for regular patrons. no studying allowed... i want to give back to the society who knows maybe one famous doctor will give his speech on national broadcast and thank me... " i would like to attribute my success to hazel lim, the founder of hazel's cafe. The cafe is study friendly, very cosy and there's delicious food that also whet up my appetite for knowledge. The owner is extremely kind, helpful , encouraging and pretty which also makes it another contributing factor why i'm able to make this speech today..." imagine i switch on the tv and i see this speech dedicated just for me... can u imagine?! i'll fly to heaven ...

i don't like macs now... to show my distaste, i'm going to boycott mac for the rest of the year... im dead serious even though there's delicious hotcakes but then... i'm going to boycott still (firm!)

i think macs sucks, i think my bum's too big, i think i'm weird, i think tests suck. most importantly, i think guitar rocks!!! i'm entitled to think what i like. Blog hopper has the right to think whatever he/she likes. I don't mind seriously... also, i think it's cowardy not to reveal your real name and use a pseudonym ... hazel thinks whatever way she likes and she's proud of it.... WHY?! this is a democratic country and there's freedom of speech duh~~~~ anyway, i think kayaking is so-so... flying fox is much nicer...

Thursday, June 14, 2007

went to hard rock cafe last friday: Cool guitars mounted on the wall...
More cool guitars...
The portions of food were huge. Can't be blamed since it's an western restaurant... i was too engrossed in eating that i forgot to snap photos of the food. It was after i've finished the food then i remember 'oh shit!' to take photos of the food but *shrug* it was too late anyway...
went taka to shop!! whee!!


Have you seen brownie cheesecake before?! I've seen oreo cheesecake, cheesecake, cheesecake with a layer of biscuit at the bottom but it was my first time seeing a BROWNIE CHEESECAKE!! I'm so fascinated... Pls don't tell me that i'm a sua ku (mountain tortoise) cause i have no wish to know... wahaha!
It's really really really delicious k. drop dead delicious... yum!
i'm shocked, amazed and disgusted...
saw a message on friendster...
this guy left a message " u r beautiful..would like to know u. be waiting for ur reply ..pls leave ur email address as well..."
erm... let me make this clear... i'm not trying to show off or boast whatsoever...
i'm bemused by the fact that the person must be somewhat blind or something. i'm beautiful? wahaha!! *rolls onto the floor and laugh*
i don't even know who the hell is he...
somehow the cynical part of me believes that he's just trying to pull my leg and to increase the number of friends he has on friendster like what some people do...
anyway, i think that when u wanna know a person right... don't start off with 'you're beautiful' cause it really turns people off. Or maybe it's just me la. So damn cheesy can. "u r beautiful" think u're james blunt is it?! plus 'u r beautiful' sounds so superficial la... even though ya..looks do play a part in the attraction factor, plus at least try to mask it la... say something like 'i like to know you cause we share the same interests'. I know it's equally cheesy but at least it won't make me roll onto the floor and puke...
OMG! this is so funny that i'm going to write in my diary so that i recall and tell my grandchildren in future... must teach them the art of making friends man...
I'm cynical right?
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