I think i ate something wrong in JB and was diarrhoea-ing the whole of yesterday. Which explains why i was practically worming my way to cityhall for dnd meeting and worming my way back cause i felt so weak and lack of energy.

Thankfully, i'm ok now. Yay! Just want to add, my immune system sucks...

And i've watched Transformers 2. Abit of a let down... The plot and ending was expected. Plus, some parts were yawn-inducing. Thankfully, there's Megan Fox to salvage the day by just looking hot and kissable. Her lips are so sexy can...

I think i might have landed myself into some trouble... Para needs to look for a partner emcee for dnd and i told him if he can't look for suitable partner, then i'll consider. He replied saying... he doesn't have many candidates to consider anyway. Hmm... ...

Wake up, read newspapers, doodle, watch tv, play Sims 3, eat, use computer, eat, go for a walk, watch tv, sleep.

Haha! My life has became so predictable and i actually don't mind the slightest bit. It beats going to school feeling so unhappy, pent up and exhausted all the time. Once again, these serve to convince that i'm really a 宅女. MUAHAHAH!

In Sims, i like to create dysfunctional family. A female teenager, a small boy and an old granny but no parents.

i don't like you and you and your nonsense that borders on brainless. Your selfishness and indifference to your parents. Your arrogance and your dependence. Becareful i'll treat you like how you treat your parents.

i drew on the shoes!!

I woke up feeling all so arty-farty. So i decided to doodle on a pair of plain white canvas shoes for my cousin, Eunice. TADAH!!

I got the inspiration from a wrapping paper which Nga gave it to me. HAHAHA!!!

I like the design so much that i'm going to do a similar one for my own plain white pair of cavas shoes. But i need to go bras basah soon to get the art materials first.

2nd person has asked me whether i'm celebrating fathers' day.

I may appear callous for saying this but ...

i don't celebrate fathers' day...

Met up with my primary school friend-Tan Lay Ling!!

It has been ages since we last met... :( well... that's what uni life does to you. It seems to sap up every minute of your life. That girl, is still full of nonsense man. It's great catching up with her and as usual, we are never lacking of topics to talk about.

I realised i seem to have a best friend from all levels. Primary sch-LayLing (all the childish things we did together). sec sch-mel. JC-chanchan. I should be thankful because in my life, i have three great buddies who can understand me and we hang out like peas in a pod.

I'm happy that the peacock had finally sung 唯一 to me. Peacock rocks! The peacock has elevated and evolved into a phoenix in my heart. (i'm like talking in code words and i wonder whether people can understand what i'm saying)

Today,an aunty asked me a question in malay. I told her i didn't understand but she asked me again. Gosh! does that mean i look like a malay??

The last time someone tried to converse with me in malay was in sec school. When i was dark and looked like a monkey.

We were bored and decided to go pasir ris for cycling. But the weather looked ominous and we decided to bowl instead.

My bimbotic pink socks...

I wanted to pee and chanchan said i'm 'SB'

hazel: what's SB?

chanchan: small bladder

hazel: i thought you were calling me sexy bimbo.

chanchan: DOTZ.... -_-""

And she's calling me SB which stands for stupid bimbo...

We were playing halfway when our lanes got shut and maintenance was in progress

Chanchan, why so serious?

I have the qian bian look

LOOK AT CHANCHAN!! Hilarious can!

while i was talking, chanchan was busy snapping pics of me.

Hopefully to catch an unglam look of me..

Fair skin tone mode!

splitter!

unglam!

This is Mr Kiwi, who had bully my friend Mel.

This is called virtual 打小人...

I gave him a disgusting looking moustache and a pink gay tie.

Due to extreme violence, the clobbering process of Mr Kiwi, the virtual doll,

will not be shown...

This is MR KIWI again... lying in a pool of blood...

打小人成功！！！

Anybody want to 打小人, can look for me... haha!

Suddenly, i have a list of things that i want to do. Some may sound silly though...

1) prowl the beach (changi) for hermit crab and other marine life (NOT fishes definitely)

2) go to a pub where there's decent music. Not the mambo dancing kind...

3) Go clarke quay and admire the night's view

4) Go museum

5) go sentosa

6) go pulau ubin

7) go for ice cream buffet

8) cheap and decent buffet

hahahaha! random...

Suddenly, i think my fear if fishes is pretty weird. I'm scared of fishes that are alive. But i love to eat fish. Hmm....

Peter says 'i want it,' and he has it...

Hazel says 'i want it,' but she has to wait ages...

The disparity of life...

I wonder what's the use of being so secretive when everything's going to be revealed in the end anyway...

The person who is supposed to be kept in the dark, is in the dark. Not because she is oblivious to what's going on. It's because she chooses to remain... in the dark.

You can have your own views but i am entitled to mine.

sarcasm rules!

Phew...

Finally, i can heave a sigh of relief. This is because i'm more or less done with my parts for hall mag. I just need to input some more stuff which some people haven't sent to me yet, thus, i can't start doing.

However, i need to come up with more designs for cover page. I managed to design one and then... i was lost for inspirations. Haha! Although the designing cover page is not part of my jobscope but i think i better design some in case somebody's computer die on her or photoshop trial version expires. Sometimes, it's best to believe in yourself than others. haha!

Looking at STARS planner makes my blood boil. Timetable sucks big time. Was complaining to chan and mel about it. I only have one lecture on monday at 1030.
-_-" i'm so near a four days week. AND ON FRIDAY, i have one lecture in the morning at 830 to 1030. Followed by four hours break. Then i have two tutorials after that. WTF! Tutorials aren't ponnable. I can only bid goodbye to ntu and go back home for the weekend at 1630. *&%#%&()*%#!!!

Timetable sucks la... plus if i want to take business law, the lecture is on fri till 630? or 730 pm. ARGH!!!

BS 201 Physiology

The lectures will cover mainstream topics in human physiology including nervous system, endocrine system, circulatory system, respiratory system, digestive system, urinary system, skeletal and muscular system and reproductive system. Emphasis will also be given to the concept of homeostasis and how the body systems work together to maintain a dynamic steady state within the internal environment.

my view: shld be interesting.

BS 202 Microbiology

general introduction to microbiology with a special focus on the impact microorganisms have in our life. The lectures will cover introduction to microbiology, microbial metabolism, microbial molecular biology and genetics, diversity of microbe, ecology and symbiosis, microbial diseases and their control, immunity to microorganisms, industrial application of microbiology.

My view: hai...

BS 203 Advanced cell biology

This course will further advance the learning of basic cell biology taught in Year 1 by covering in-depth the mechanisms of cellular development, cell signaling and cell-environmental interaction. The lectures will cover stem cell biology, cell receptor and signaling biology, extracellular matrix biology, apoptosis.

My view: bet is going to be another killing topic

BS 204 Experimental Molecular & Cell Biology

This course gives a comprehensive overview of methodologies and techniques in molecular and cell biology research. The lectures will start with the introduction to standard molecular tools and techniques such as restriction endonucleases, vectors, cloning, PCR, sequencing, mutagenesis, and libraries, followed by the applications of radio- and non-radiolabeled tracers. Students will also learn different protein expression systems, protein purification and detection methods, protein nucleic acids/protein interaction analyses and the application of cell and tissue cultures. Students will actively participate in quizzes, which will be held after a series of lectures.

My view: Look at the sentence in bold and i go... WTF!

BS 205 Biostatistics

This course gives an overview of the importance of biostatistics in the scientific design of experiments and in the objective collection, processing, analysis, interpretation and communication of scientific investigations in the life sciences. The lectures will cover descriptive statistics, data summary using statistical indices and diagrams, probability and probability distributions, confidence intervals, hypothesis-testing, basic tests of significance involving means, proportions, measurement of relationships between variables using correlation and regression and non-parametrics methods.

My view: HYPO TESTING HYPO TESTING HYPO TESTING! I seriously think this is the topic that i'll meet my fate and die.

BS821 Lab 3

HW102 The Art of Academic Writing

This course is designed to help science students with their academic writing. Style and Strategy: Using organization and style appropriate to scientific writing. Critical Review: Reading and responding critically to scientific texts. Analytical Writing: Explaining by means of extended definitions, process analysis, compare-contrast and/or cause-effect analysis. Academic Arguments: Learning the rhetoric of academic argument, its purpose, forms and structures of reasoning. Research Writing: Learning important research skills such as identifying research questions, gathering information and data, integrating and documenting information and reporting research findings. Revising and Editing: Ensuring clarity, coherence and correctness in writing.

My view: another crap mod.

I'm still thinking of taking another elective. Either business law or an art elective. Reason simply, i'm feeling suicidal and want to fill every inch of my time with endless mugging. OH GOSH! How i love mugging...

Ok... i'm so sarcastic that i hate myself for being so sarcastic. I want to clear my electives so that i can nua abit in my later years. Can't stand electives man. Can't the school supply more interesting, fun, un-stressful, non-examinable electives?

Mootood!

My day started with me reading this hilarious email frm NTU's webmail account. NTU student union sent an email titled 'design poloshit competition'. sth along that line. i received two emails with the 'poloshit' title. It was only the third email did they finally realsed their mistake and changed it to 'poloshirt'. Mootood sia! But entertaining la!

Finally, i went shopping for my bday gift and immersed myself into the GSS mood. Haha! Barbie collectors
This barbie super chio

Pink and pretty!
I see a girl... relieving her childhood...

This panda's damn cute la...

it totally stared at me with those innocent soulful eyes, begging me

to take it home...

Our favourite cartoon character!

SEE!! who did i spot?

I bought a dress and top from forever 21, a skirt, hot pink and white tubes, white and grey cardigans and a chequered skirt which cost only 10 bucks from cotton on! haha! I seem to be in a chequered loving state.

It seems like i'm getting increasingly bimbotic. Huichan thinks so and Nga replied 'quite' when i asked him whether i'm really bimbotic. He quickly said no because he claimed i was pouting which all the more make me appear bimbotic. :(

Does this have anything to do with age?

Well... the shopping therapy's good! haven't been shopping for quite some time. Tomorrow, i shall pack my room. I promise.

Let me end off this post by saying, i'm happy and thankful for the retail therapy! :)

Let's proceed to an emo and angsty entry...

Sometimes, many times, i pity my mum for being the middlewoman. Somewhat like the oreo cream stuck between two oreo biscuits. I know she's in a difficult position and i try my best to be understanding towards her. I would deem myself as rather even tempered and undemanding towards her. I feigned innocence and never once did i complain or show how sad or deeply i've been hurt by her. I just wallow in self pity, perhaps hide in my room and cry but never in front of her because i don't want to agonise her.

i admit the words i say maybe leaning towards sarcasm. Not everyone can stomach. Abit rude. whatsoever but sometimes i just can't help it. She's bordering on being too much and someone needs to get the foot down to stop her. And the person is me although i'm also displeased which explains my sarcasm. Anyway, i'm human.

During dinner, my mum actually gave him the huge chunk of chicken drumstick plus the upper thigh meat. While we children, just stared. Ok... i don't qualify as a child anymore. I'm not exactly a fan of poultry or meat either. I like some veggies, tofu and fish! haha! That's not the point but my cousins were there. Shouldn't adults save the best for the children?

Sometimes, that's how overboard and brainless my mum can get. That's why i have to remind her that. This is why i feel i'm more mature than my mum at times. Honestly, i do feel tired of having to worry about her being cheated or plain worry about her. His and her selfishness just irritates me.

last time, when i was young, i felt that I'm forced to grow up too soon. But on the other hand, i'm good at 看人家脸色.

My Ahyi related this incident to me which occurred this afternoon. HE, said he wouldn't want lunch without luncheon meat. He needs to have meat as part of his diet. And he went fuming back to his room...Ah ma went to open some canned meat which he then added he didn't like.

OH MY FREAKING GOD! For goodness sake. We have fried egg, veggie and plain porridge for lunch most of the time. When the both of them are not at work. Frugality could be one reason. Another is my ahma also needs a break what!! Cooking something simple should suffice. Anyway, it's food still. Fancy behaving like a juvenile at his age. I'm not sure whether they really had luncheon meat after that hell.

Thankfully, i was not around. If not i would have supplied sarcasm.

When it comes to food, i'm never a fusspot. Because food is food. Plus, we're not the ones cooking. We'll never understand how tiring or tough it is to cook. Even if there's only plain porridge and veggies, i may complain but i won't not eat or throw tantrum.

This is because i will remind myself to be thankful for what i have on my plate.

This is the reason why i can't envision myself living under one roof with my mum in future. With my mum, comes an appendage. As cruel and heartless as it sounds, i can't stand living with them.

So i must study hard so that i can provide for my ahma,ahyi and two cousins in future. I'm not trying to glorify myself but we only have each other to depend on. The other two, not that i hate them but they irritate me all the way to my socks.

Like posterised pictures!
They are actually... our flyer tickets

I think the bridge looks nice...

Flyer!!

GHOST!!

Me beside singapore's scenic night view

He's staring into the distance...

Stares somemore....

While i emo...

Went to JB yesterday. Ate at secret recipe. If you think that singapore's service is not up to standards, do try your luck by going across the causeway. The service is more horrendous. My cousin ordered aussie beefsteak and we were told there were none. But, the table beside ours got their beefsteak. And, we were served main dishes first before our soup. Bird brained. Really bird brained. They just ponked our soup on the table and left. No smiles, no greetings. A bunch of bird brainers.

I'm going to the flyer again because mummy has free tickets. haha! I'll try to curb my over enthusiasm and not sing when i come down from the flyer... hehe!

Have more pics but they are inappropriate to be uploaded. why? use your imagination... haha!

The guys around me all have the same problem. They aren't providing for their family financially. Coupled with irresponsibility and indifference towards what's happening to their children, such men would soon discover that they reap what they sow. The world now is very realistic. Bringing up a child isn't as simple as it may seem. Besides providing the child with financial support, the parent is expected to see to the child's emotional needs. Be his/her friend/aunt agony.

Do people deserve a second chance?

How many times do we have to forgive the person before we should make an end to it?

Does it pay to be benevolent?

My aunt recounted her visit to jail to meet Z. Z said he is extremely remorseful for his actions. He hopes to make it up to his sons when he's out. My aunt believes he'll turn over a new leaf after this episode and painful lesson. He now faces rejection from his family.

Perhaps, i'm being overly cynical, sceptical and pessimistic. I doubt Z will change. If he is capable of turning over a new leaf, things didn't have to proceed to this stage. HE could have make amends a long time ago. He could have loved and cared for his sons a long time ago. i wish i could believe that people are capable of turning over a new leaf. On the other hand, i also subscribe to the view that a leopard doesn't change its spots. He was the one who ruin the things blessed to him. He failed to cherish his gems. Now, he has lost everything. To put it harshly, it is too late to make amends.

Closer at home, another similar incident is happening. Minus the jailing part though. The somewhat abandonment of children. Emotional detachment i would describe. One day, all these men will reap what they sow...

And they can't blame their children for that...

I'm disappointed...

But i realised there's no point dwelling on the disappointment.

Life goes on.

I told my aunt never in my life would i choose to stay with my mum if one day our family were to split up. I rather hole up in a small flat with my ahyi rather than staying with her. Ahyi understands how i feel about a certain someone. Sometimes, i don't know whether i should pity myself or my parents.

My fornightly outings with dad are bombarded by 3 extra human beans. Sometimes, i wonder why on earth am i even there since i feel excluded as they are often speaking in cantonese.

From a long time ago, i knew that my parents do not solely belong to me. I must learn to share. Along came the lesson of acting blur, disinterest and mute. It's never my place to begin with anyway.

Met Mel yesterday! Miss her loads! It's holidays now but we barely have time to meet. Finally, we had a chance to meet up for some chit chats and of course, to camwhore. Haha! No more dark, barely visible pictures anymore! haha! Mel, no matter what, i'll always be there for you. ( bold it so hopefully she can see... haha!)

Met songwei at suntec and since we were at suntec, we thought we must as well go to the flyer and use our free tickets. There was these two guys who went before us although they joined the queue later as compared to us because they paid for higher-priced tickets. That explains why they got to go first... haha! AND, here comes the bitchy part, they were entitled to the whole of one capsule. I think i exclaimed abit too loudly that they are so gay. WHICH IS TRUE WHAT?? don't u think they are gays as well? i fantasised about them making out in the capsule and i blurted out what i fantasised. Then i realised the capsule was all transparent and people could see which means they couldn;t make out and i totally didn't stop my mouth and i blurted what i thought out again. Freak! The assistant at the flyer could barely contain his amusement. He laughed/ um -chio-ed. *slaps myself* I must really learn how to control my damn mouth.

Up on the capsule where we were hundred metres above ground, i realised that singapore;s night view is pretty nice. I like night views. Just like i used to enjoy having my dad bringing us to mount faber and we get to look at the scenic night view of singapore as well as enjoy the cool breeze up on the 'mountain'. Miss those visits!
:( well... things change when you are all grown up...

And, dad forgot my bday present... well... nothing to say...

I was super high when we got down from the capsule. I suspect it was because of the experience of going up to higher altitude, whereby the air is thinner and the moment i touched the ground, my brain got over-enthusiastic with the higher supply of air. i sang for nga and i think he was embarrassed. That guy just doesn;t treasure man... Btw, i tried all sorts of methods to make him sing for me and he still refused. what a peacock man...

At a time like this, i'm craving for warm beancurd and youtiao. Haha!! I wonder how things will turn out when i'm pregnant. Even before i'm pregnant, i'm already having cravings...

I'm supposed to control my heart and not let it drift to somewhere that it's not supposed to... ...

Reign in...

Do people deserve a second chance?
I seriously do not have an answer...

My lifelong dream is to have my BOYFRIEND sing me the song 唯一 by Wang Lee hom. I told him to SING me the song. I didn't bother to hint this time. I just told him STRAIGHT IN THE FACE to sing for me. AND, HE REFUSED... by giving some lame excuse that the key very high...

Can anyone out there, with XY as the 23 rd pair of chromosomes sing me 唯一 by Wang Lee Hom???!!! i think i'll gladly marry you.

(ok... the last point... i'm just kidding)

人生的过程,有得有失. 经商,有赚有赔.事业,有起有落.计划,有成有败.比赛,有胜有负.股票,有涨有跌.成绩,有高有低.地位,有上有下.

Just feel that this sentence reflects strongly about life. In general, life is full of ups and downs. Good and bad, come together.

In the end, i didn't take up the temperature screening job because my mum's strongly against it. She thinks it's dangerous and to a certain extent, her points are valid. Hopefully, i can find a weekend part time sales job plus the IT fair. Then weekdays i can spend my time tuitioning my cousins.

I went JB with my family and we watched terminator salvation. i like those action packed shows that do not involve my brain. Only need to sit there and gawk. LOL! Didn't like the parts whereby marcus wright's face got ripped and revealed his steel robot structure underneath the human's skin. Yucks. Pretty face should be kept intact what...

You know what...it turns out my cousin may not be getting married to the Australian anymore. Apparently, they knew each other online but haven't met each other before... And don't know what happened, out of the blue, they talked about marriage. If i'm not wrong, my cousin is near 30. Not some juvenile, immature, childish kid. There he goes on treating marriage like masak masak... *faints*

It's unfathomable how people just know that they are right for each other? The situation is made more complicated due to the fact that they hadn't met each other, not even once and marriage is in their considerations. I think even if i've been seeing someone for a period of time, i don't think i would even consider marriage. Not so soon, not so fast. Well... i was hoping perhaps i should just stay single for the rest of my life. haha! Maybe it's just me and all my over reactings.

and with the females in my house occasionally lamenting and complaining about the male species, marriage is definitely a subject worth lots of considerations...

I sense trouble brewing...

Hai... i long for a break at some island surrounded with spectacular beach.