muddled fuddled

I'm getting all muddled fuddled...

Applying for uni is such a pain in my ass... This time round, i have be bloody stringent about choosing the CORRECT course. School fees won't be 30 plus dollars per term. Not like the schools i had previously attended and graduated. NO heavy subsidies from MOE. I cannot study halfway and change to another course like how a casanova changes girlfriends. No we talking about school fees in terms of 3 zeros per sem. Few Ks... oh gosh... Moreover, i'll be spending 3 years of more in that course. If i happen to hate/loathe the course after entering it, it'll be 'god bless me'...

I'm stuck in a dilemma. I think i should be more inclined towards science related courses but after more in depth reflections, after 10 years of slogging my lungs and heart out for science, do i actually like science? I did fantasise entering life sciences but two years of JC's bio held me and pulled me mercilessly back to reality. Did i enjoy bio? Maybe yes maybe no but a nagging feeling told me the degree in which 'i enjoy bio' triumps over 'i hate bio' is perhaps a milli fraction. This is an extremely vulnerable situation as it can be easily reversed. What if after taking life sciences, i start to discover that my interest doesn't really lies in science and i'm better off somewhere. I can imagine the monster named 'regret' creeping into my heart and pilfer off what's left of a little interest i have for science. That will then be the day-my heart had died for science....
*starts playing some tragic Mozart's music in the background*

My results kind of indicate that i'm more suited for arts. However, a part of me is intrigued by the idea of taking arts but on the other hand i'm afraid i can't cope. It'll be somewhat like entering a new realm and people tend to be nervous when thrown in a strange place that they hadn't set foot on before. What if i enter this new realm and find myself treading on thin ice. what if the fragile ice can't support me any longer and starts breaking? i'll find myself in another position. That's when my heart dies for arts and i shall arrange to be buried somewhere serence in the arts faculty.

So, either way i may be dying. That's why being normal,non-psychotic person that harbours no morbid thoughts of terminating my life sooner, I'm afraid of death. Hence, i'm agonising over which faculty and course to take. The more i ponder about it, the more painful my ass becomes. Such a pain in my ass-i repeat.

All the above sounds so serious and non entertaining... I need advice. haha! Abit like writing compo hor?

Went to Marina Square with Chan Mali yesterday. We had pizzas at pizzahut for lunch. We were elated at first cause we thought we could use our bluish ez link cards and proudly declare ourselves as students. BUT BUT BUT, according to the person who served us,the bluish ez link card with my horrible picture on it would not be recognised yesterday. Let me make myself clearer. There wasn't any student meals promotion yesterday because it was the eve of public holiday. OK!! Chinese New year eve,New year eve,Christmas eve i've heard. But, i've never heard of such thing as Good Friday's eve. It's not as though schools have half day or something. Imagine National Day's eve. Whatever lor... So we paid the full adult price. Whatever.

Anyway, we caught rule #1 (horror show). I love horror show and i always laugh at the wrong parts. People were spooked while i was there laughing. Chan Mali doesn't seem to fathom the reasons why i laughed at the wrong parts. I just find it funny. Well... who cares. Not everyone's brains are wired the same way. We don't think along the same path but that's ok.

Back from Japan

I'm back!!

Normally when i'm overseas, i'll tend to miss Singapore and feel that the country i'm in pales in comparison to the place i'm born. I'll feel homesick and miss my birthplace tremendously. When it's time to go back home to the lion city, i'll be elated. However, this time round, those feelings do not apply. I like Japan. Haha!!

People there are courteous. Drivers seldom sound their horns on the road. Taxis are able to drop and pick passengers anywhere and other drivers are able to compromise. Unlike the CBD area that allows taxis to pick/drop passengers only at designated areas which are pathetically insufficient. I think the authority has relaxed the rules... Japan is clean and the people there are very mindful of sorting their rubbish into plastic bottles, papers, metal cans and others (which means can throw all sorts of rubbish like food and whatsoever). Even though dustbins are a scarce resource in Japan, the people still managed to keep a civic mindedness and not throw litter. The country in clean because the people play a part in keeping the streets clean by being mindful not to litter. I know this is going to sting but in singapore, our streets are clean because we have a large resource of blanglas to clear the eyesore.

Plus, the ice cream in Japan is awesome!! I've discovered that cold countries produce nice ice cream. The pastries there are fluffly soft like cotton but not overly sweet. That's why a lot of tourists spend large amounts of money purchasing japanese goodies/sweets/pastries home. I think i'll gain a whooping 10 kgs of i stay in Japan for long term...

According to our tour guide, he said that Japan has a lot of freedom. Take for example, the students in Japan are able to dress up in whatsoever way without landing themselves in discipline lectures. The schools allow students to dye their hair,have funny weird hairstyles and slap on make up to qualify for wayang. some schools even allow students to wear home clothes... Anyway, i don't mind wearing uniforms in Japan cause the uniforms there are so cool. The flipside is that there are guys who do not resemble guys because of their long shaggy hair styles and fringe that practically obscured their eyes which left me wondering how they managed to walk about on the road safely without bumping intoanything. Perhaps, they sniff their way around like dogs do? Girls tend to perm their hair afro or sweet looking styles... The fashion there in Japan is Cool as well. (i always use the word cool) haha!

The hotels provide yugatas for us to wear to bed or to hot springs. i think i look weird in it...

My first night in Japan....

Large and comfy

The splendid view outside my hotel room the next morning. There's SNOW on the ground! Splendid!

We bought strawberries back home. Juicy sweet mouthwatering strawberries. I'm craving for them...

The tidbits we'd bought...

MORE MORE MORE


According to the latest news report, the quantity of tidbits is diminishing due to the presence of a gluttony greedy sweet-toothed human named Hazel.

i don't mind marrying a japanese. Haha!!

New-found Talent

I'm here to announce to the whole wide world (like anyone cares but i'm still announcing...) that...
Chiang! Chiang! Chiang!
Drumrolls....
Thunder!!
I've found a talent!
My new found talent!
Praise myself...
My talent...
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Yes, i can bend my last finger like this....Perpendicularly...

Gross right? I wonder whether i can make money with such a special pinky... Haha!!

Anyway, it's confirmed that results will be out this Friday but no sweats cause i've already placed my order for a coffin and rosey flower wreath for myself... Anyone who wants to send me flower wreaths or their condolences and do so... Just sms me and i'll rise from my coffin to text you back my address...

Good Luck People! I know i'm morbid...

I Love L

I managed to catch Death Note spin Off : L Changes the World on Monday!! Since i had two free movie tix, i invited chan Mali to join me. The show was Cool man... It has successfully ignited my love for L. Haha!! He's funny and weird in the show... My new love on the right...

Cool right?

Come to think of it... I guess i'm attracted to weird people. I like weird characters like Spongebob,Jack Sparrow and the lastest being L. They are all eccentric, quirky, weird fellows... Does that mean i'm weird? Oh gosh... anyway, who cares...

My family said it's ok even if i don't go university or find a course that interests me... I'd flipped through some of the courses in NTU's brochures and i have found nothing that perks me up and burns my passion to want to study it...

What's the point of spending a colassal amount of time,money and energy studying something that i don't even have an interest in in the first place and later come to hate it? Of course not forgetting the possibility that i may like it as time passes on....

Hopefully, i'll get good enough grades to pursue a course that i have at least some interest in it...